“I understand,” Lochran said. “I haven’t had sex in years. Or kissed anyone.”
A memory pricked in my mind’s eye. This wasn’t the first time Lochran had alluded to not having sex.
What constitutes as full-on sex is different for everyone. But, for me, it’s penetrative sex. And I haven’t done that in years.
I had just assumed he’d been kidding.
I resisted the urge to giggle at the ridiculousness of our situation. As if Fate would match a celibate sex demon to a witch who was on a sex ban. But when my gaze met Lochran’s, there was no humor in his eyes.
“Really?” I asked.
Lochran shrugged as if being a celibate sex demon wasperfectly ordinary. “I had to do other things to feed, of course. But not having sex was my way of feeling like I was in control. And kissing has always been very intimate for me.” After a brief second, he carefully added, “And it’s the reason I haven’t... uh... taken the contraceptive potion in years.”
A conflict of emotions surged through me. I was oddly pleased that I’d found a kinship with Lochran. I understood his need to find a way to take back control, even if it meant going against his baser needs. But my stomach hollowed at the realization that he might still have his sex ban in place. We hadn’t had sex yet... in fact, we hadn’t even kissed yet. I’d assumed that once I’d worked through my issues, we wouldn’t be able to keep our hands off one another. I hadn’t considered that my mate would have the same battle ahead of him.
And he was subtly warning me that, if we mutually decided to go further, he hadn’t taken the annual potion to prevent pregnancies. I had, of course, as being a mother hadn’t been high on my list of things to do. In fact, I’d never really given it much thought as I had never intended to summon my mate. That thought was way too overwhelming to consider right now. But the fact that my mate had brought up that he wasn’t protected, rather than just assuming that we would go straight to baby making now we had been brought together, made me fall for him that little bit harder.
That was, of course, assuming hewantedto have sex. That pesky little voice in my head said,He hasn’t actually crossed those boundaries he already had in place. He hasn’t yet asked you to touch him, or even kiss him, let alone have sex with him.
I needed to ease into thiscarefully. I still wasn’t ready for penetrative sex, but I wanted to let him know it wasn’t off the table for me in the future. “I... um... took the contraception recently.” Okay. Easy part done. I hoped he picked up that sex was something I was contemplating in the future if I was willing to talk about contraception. Now for the hard part: finding out if he was ready to challenge some of his boundaries. “Em... about your sex ban—”
As if sensing my unrest, Lochran said softly, “Don’t worry, Lex. My sex ban dissipated the moment I laid eyes on you.”
Chapter 16. Lochran
A flicker of relief crossed my mate’s face. Her lips looked so soft and inviting in the firelight, and I wondered if she would let me kiss her.
As if she could read my mind, she asked, “Can I kiss you?”
Excitement thrummed through my veins as I nodded.
It was as if our bodies moved in sync. One second I was on my side of the couch, wrapped in a blanket. A split second later, the blanket was gone, and I collided with my mate halfway, our lips meeting and arms wrapping around each other in a devouring embrace. Lex didn’t protest as I pulled her on top of me, the heat of her body searing through the thin material of her tank top. My dick grew instantly hard as her tongue flicked over my lips, a silent plead to let her in. A moan rumbled inside me as I parted my lips for her, our tongues rolling over each other in blissful, devouring exploration.
My fingers dug into her as she ground into my length, and—fuck—she was the most perfectcreature on this earth.
Her fingers glided feather-soft over my chest, feeling lower until they plucked at the hem of my shorts.
Wicked little witch.
I caught her bottom lip between my teeth, causing her to grind into me again, pulling her lips from mine.
“Lex,” I groaned, unconsciously leaning toward her, desperate for her lips to be on mine again.
She answered with a wicked grin, her fingers pushing my shorts further down. “I want more than just touching,” she said, her voice heavy with desire. “I want to take you in my mouth.”
I’d never been so glad that I’d spent the morning edging myself. If I hadn’t, the seduction in my mate’s voice alone would have had me spilling my seed.
“Can I taste you after?” I begged.
Lex, so eager to begin, simply nodded as she climbed off me. I just about had time to lift my ass slightly off the couch, and in one swift movement, she pulled my shorts off. My cock fell against my torso with a heavy thud, a bead of precum dripping from the tip into my navel.
Lex leaned over me, pressing her lips to mine once more before kneeling on the floor in front of me. Her breath rolled over my length, cooling a fresh bead of precum.
“I want you to stay still for as long as you can,” she said. “And when you can’t take it anymore, I want you to grab my hair and fuck my mouth.”
My balls tightened at her deliciously filthy request. How had we gone from taking it slow to my mate demanding that I fuck her mouth in just three nights?
Now wasn’t the time to question, though.