Page 68 of Until I Break

I can tell he is extremely triggered because I am here. I sit up a bit and look at Gunner and mouth the words, “Is he okay?” Gunner shakes his head so that I cup Oscar’s face.

“Look at me, Oscar,” I say gently. He does, but his eyes are filled with unshed tears.

“Please let me see the real you,” I say. “I love you, Oscar. I know you love them. Let me see how much you love them.”

“I can’t be judged by you,” he says, trying to keep himself calm.

“Oscar, honey. You fucked your sister. I think you liking to take fat cock in your ass is the very least of what you should be judged for,” I say with a smile, and he laughs. “Love is beautiful in all its forms, Oscar. I want you to be unequivocally you, and I will support everything you three do without judgment or limitations. I know you were made to feel less than human by Dad, and I wish I could take away that pain. I wish I could go back and stand up for you.”

“He would have hurt you,” Oscar sighs.

“He was hurting me, Oscar. I was six the first time he made me touch him. I was twelve the first time he raped me. I had three abortions by the time you saved me. He is dead, and the pain he caused us died with him. Let me see you, Oscar.”

“Okay,” he says softly.

“Good boy,” I reply, kissing his cheek. Before he can respond to me, Gunner grabs his cock again and Oscar grunts.

“Now then,” Gunner says. “You get to pick who you have behind you.”

“You,” Oscar says. “I called Collin a bitch earlier. I don’t trust him.”

“Aww. Don’t be afraid,” Collin says with a grin.

They move in perfect harmony as Collin and Gunner move Oscar so that he is on his knees at the end of the bed while sitting back on his heels. I am sitting with my back against the headboard to watch them, and I am giddy as I watch my men together. Collin stands at the edge of the bed while Gunner moves behind Oscar and starts massaging his shoulders. Oscar reluctantly closes his eyes and slowly relaxes as Gunner does this. I am realizing that they are doing their best to make him comfortable and help him relax, much like they all do with me. It’s not about making him physically ready; they want him mentally ready to show me this. It’s a huge step for all of them, but especially Oscar. Dadwas horrible to him because I guess he suspected that he was attracted to men and just latched onto it. He would whip Oscar while screaming slurs at him as if it could “get rid of the gay” or whatever. He went to “camp” once when I was ten, and I am pretty sure it was a conversion camp. I am terrified to know what they did to him there. I wish I could go back and do something, but I was dealing with another vile side of him. The worst part is that he didn’t even drink. Some parents are shit because alcohol ruined them. He was naturally this horrific.

Gunner gently pushes Oscar forward so that he is on his hands and knees, and the sob that escapes him breaks my fucking heart. They are moving slowly and checking in with him frequently. Collin lifts his face and smiles sweetly down at Oscar. “You are doing so well, Oscar. We are proud of you.”

“I’m sorry. I’m trying,” Oscar says tearfully.

“You are more than trying. You are doing amazing,” Collin says, glancing up at Gunner, who now has the lube. Oscar growls and tenses up when Gunner slowly slides his fingers into his ass, but his cock hardens immediately. I move up to my knees and sit back on my heels, beside myself with happiness to have a chance to see them together. Yes, it’s hot as fuck, but it’s so damn intimate. This is the love they have shared for years. The way they care for one another is incredible and heartwarming to see.

“Relax, Oscar. We’ve got you,” Gunner says, slowly fucking him with his fingers. When he pulls out and drips lube on his own cock, I feel goddamn feral. Collin is close by, but not touching Oscar anymore. Gunner winks at me before suddenly slamminginto Oscar. An audible gasp leaves me as Oscar’s moan fills the room.

“Fuck, I’ve missed you on my cock,” Gunner growls and hammers into him again. My entire body reacts each and every time he shoves deep and Oscar moans. I unintentionally whimper as if I am the one getting fucked, but immediately slap my hand over my mouth when they all look at me.

“Come here, Cass,” Oscar growls as he manages to grab me and pull me closer. He has me under him so he can kiss me deeply, whimpering into my lips when Gunner starts fucking him hard and fast. When Collin pulls Oscar’s head up, I am in the perfect spot to see him get throat-fucked. When Oscar takes Collin into his mouth, Collin holds his face as he starts fucking his throat hard, fast, and deep. I can’t help but move over and take Oscar down my throat. I suck hard, and he immediately rocks his hips to fuck my mouth. His moans are gargled, and I am on the literal verge of coming, and it’s fucking wild.

When Oscar comes, I swallow everything he gives me, but I don’t stop. Not until Collin fucks his come down Oscar’s throat. The second he pulls away, Oscar drags me out from under him. I am confused for a second when Oscar lies on his back, but then he grabs my hips and pulls me on top of him to sit on his face. I hardly get a chance to object before he starts sucking on my clit like his life depends on it. Gunner pushes his legs back so that he can slam back into his ass. That sight alone has me coming, but I take his cock down my throat and suck hard as my body shakes. Collin grabs my hair and forces me down further until I physically can’t take anymore. He then pulls me up and pushesme back down. I move with him and bob my head up and down, moaning around his cock.

Just as Oscar is about to come again, not only does Gunner come and pull out of him, I stop. I squeal when I am tossed to the bed and immediately pounced on by Oscar. He looks angry, so I cup his face.

“He’s okay. He just goes through a lot of emotions after,” Gunner tells me. “It’s always a reminder of what was done to him.”

“Give it to me,” I tell Oscar. “All of the anger… sadness… All of it. Give it to me, however you want.”

“I’ll hurt you,” he growls.

“Use lube,” I reply sweetly. “Please. Let me be your outlet, Oscar. You always are here to support me, so let me do the same for you.”

“Roll,” he commands and leans back. I do, and he wastes no time applying lube. “I won’t be able to stop, so you need to be sure,” Oscar tells me.

“Everything, Oscar. Cover my mouth, ignore me if I cry, and fuck me like I’m the one who hurt you,” I tell him. “I know what I am asking for.”

“I love you, Cassidy. Don’t forget that,” Oscar says as he leans in and covers my mouth. I do my best to relax as Oscar presses his cock against my ass. The moment I relax enough, Oscarslams into me, filling me to the hilt. I scream into his hand, and he starts fucking me brutally hard and deep as he continues to quicken his pace. I am screaming and damn near sobbing as he violently fucks me, but I knew exactly what I was in for. I know all the anger he has bottled up. He needs a place to put it, and I just so happen to love how goddamn violent they are with me. I love how even when they are fucking me like I am the enemy, they never once do real damage. I am being pushed right to the edge of my limits right now, but he never crosses over. When I react like the pain is getting to be too much, he backs off a little. I have come so many times that I am delirious by the time he comes. Once he has me cleaned, he has me lie beside him with my head on his chest. Collin snuggles in behind me as Gunner lies beside Oscar and drapes his arm over his abdomen to rest his palm on my side.

“I love you guys,” I say sleepily.

“We love you too, Pebbles. Go to sleep,” Collin says, kissing my shoulder.

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