Page 21 of Dex

Sitting in bed again, I think about the last week. I haven’t seen or heard from Dex. I text Jay to let him know I was home and me and the baby were fine. He phoned me straight back and bitched me out for an hour, and then offered to kick his brother’s arse for me. Liam and Penny have been around to see me. Liam was a little pissed at me, but that quickly changed when Penny told him that upsetting me could harm the baby. Then, before my eyes the six foot, hard, tattooed man softened like a marshmallow right in front of my eyes.

Lauren being Lauren wanted to hunt Dex down and pull his nipple bars out. I laughed so hard I almost peed myself. But I needed it; she knows exactly what to say to make me feel better. Like Dex, Jay and Liam were annoyed with me that I now have Lauren in my life. Well, they can suck it. She is here to stay; she will never let them push her out.

The one thing that has plagued me this week is Dex’s reaction. I never thought he would react like this. I knew that he would be pissed at me, but to cut me off completely has broken my heart more than he will ever know. Even with everyone popping in to see me, I feel lonely. I need Dex here with me. With us. Baby Castle moves and tears spring to my eyes. Knowing that he is missing out on her moving makes the tears fall faster. I just wish he would phone me, text me - anything. I need to know that he doesn’t completely hate me.

Well, if he isn’t going to make the first move then maybe I should. I need to let him know that I have a scan in two weeks. I meant what I said on the phone, I will keep him posted on the baby. If he wants me then he needs to get his big arse here and fucking beg me to be with him. I pick my phone up and send Jay the text.

Me: I have a scan in 2 weeks. I will let you know the time and date when the hospital ring me. Can you let Dex know please?

Jay: How is my baby niece? How are you Mama?

Me: She is fine. Moving. I am good. Tired but good.

Jay: Glad to hear it. You need to rest now. No more working!!!

Me: Yes, Dad ;)

Jay: Fuck, don’t say that shit. My brother will fucking kill me.

Me: He wants nothing to do with us, Jay. I have come to terms with that and so should you. Simple.

Jay: Are you fucking crazy? He has been a fucknut all week. Growling and snarling at clients.

I climb off the bed and walk out to the kitchen. I need a drink. I was told by the Doctor that I can’t let myself get dehydrated. Drinking will help with the cramp I have been getting in my calves at night. I set my phone down on the counter and grab a bottle of water from the fridge, almost groaning as the cool liquid quenches my thirst, and wait for Jay to text me back. I know never to expect an instant reply sometimes with Jay because of the studio. I pick up my phone and head into the living room. I have to stay off my feet as much as possible, but that doesn’t mean I should stay in bed.

Setting my drink on the coffee table, I pick up my Kindle. I need to finish this book. I left it at a steamy part and I can’t wait to see what happens. I love a book with angst in it, I love the way it makes my stomach knot up and my skin break out in goosebumps. But I also like the soppy books, the ones that make you ugly cry. Gotta love a bit of Molly McAdams, damn, that woman can make anyone ugly cry and send you straight into book therapy. My life with the Castle brothers has been an eventful one, and would make a bloody good book. Talk about angst with those two. The way that my heart ached for Dex for so many years, the issues that were thrown at us, Fiona and the age gap.

The things I saw when it came to those two boys… Well, Jay more so, that boy could never keep his dick in his jeans. He would leave a trail of broken hearts all over the place. Girls even resorted to phoning me to get him to talk to them - desperate much. Bitches need to learn that Jay Castle doesn’t fuck the same girl twice. Well, unless your name is Rachel Cullen, but that girl has his balls in knots. Unfortunately, she can’t see what an amazing guy he is. Yes, he is known for being a man-whore but once he saw her, I swear he was hooked. I’ve talked to Penny about my concerns about Rachel hurting Jay. All Penny has told me is that Rachel has some issues that aren’t up to her to tell me and that Rachel should talk to Jay about it first. I agree, but like I told Penny, I will not stand by and see Jay get hurt by Rachel. I will slap a bitch.

Baby Castle boots my ribs again and I wince. She is getting comfy in there. I rub the top of my baby bump, mentally picturing Dex’s large hand following my own. Showing his love for our daughter through his touch. His hand linking with mine, holding me to him. My chest aches a little. With Dex listening to me and staying away - it fucks with my head. I want him here to experience the feeling of the baby moving, but I also know that him being close to me will stutter my thoughts. A knock at the door brings me out of my moody thoughts. I have to stop getting stressed out over things that I can’t control. I slowly climb off the sofa while the person at the door knocks again.

“Hold your horses, I’m coming,” I shout at the door.

“You had better not be because that would be sick and my brother would kick my arse,” comes from the other side of the door. I smirk and pull the door open.

“Shut the fuck up, Jay,” I shout back. Jay stands there smirking at me, which is the typical Castle smirk that melts girls’ knickers all over England. He is wearing a Castle Ink t-shirt that I made the boys have made when they opened the new studio. It was good business and they do sell. Girls buy the vest tops we sell and the men buy the t-shirts. We did look at having mugs made, but Dex was in a bitchy mood because of the ‘Captain Twat’ mug I got for him, so he squashed that idea. Jay’s jeans hang off his narrow hips, just like Dex’s. They are similar in body size and they look like brothers. They share similar facial features. Jay’s hair is shorter that Dex’s but they both have the dark hair. Whiskey coloured eyes run in the family. Dex's lips are a tad plumper than Jay's.

“What’s up, my niece’s mama?” He leans in and kisses my cheek. Jay always greets me this way; he has for as long as I can remember.

“Nada. Just chilling, reading a book. Feeling baby Castle move.” The announcement makes him stop in his tracks. I shrug at him and move to walk towards the sofa. I place my Kindle back on the table and take my seat back in the corner of the cushion.

“She’s moving?” Jay asks, from the same spot he stopped. I nod my head. “And my twat of a brother is missing it,” he states. I nod again, my emotions - no doubt accelerated thanks to the pregnancy - have my throat closing up. Fuck, how can women do this more than one time? I am always flipping crying or getting choked up over random shit. I choked up over an RSPCA advert the other day. Jay takes his phone out of his pocket and swipes his thumb across the screen. Well, bloody hell, he is going to call Dex.

“Don’t, Jay. I -” He holds his hand up to silence me. “Oi!” I yell, but he ignores me.

“Brother. Get your fuckhead of an arse over to Addy’s flat, now. Shut up, she is fine. I will explain when you get here.” He doesn’t wait for Dex to reply again, he just hangs up on him. “There, now he will get to feel her move as well. He can’t keep missing out on this because he is too damn stubborn to see what is in front of him. Twat. Now, are you going to make yourself extra pretty for my brother? Because my guess would be you have one hour before he gets here.” Jay winks at me and sits in the big armchair that Lauren got for me.

“Bastard,” I mutter under my breath as I get to my feet and walk towards my bedroom. My heart is going bloody crazy in my chest at the thought of seeing Dex soon. As in one hour. Or, if Dex is freaking out, make that thirty minutes.

“You love me,” Jay shouts after me.

“That is debatable,” I yell back, and go about finding something nice but comfy to wear to face my baby daddy.

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