Page 38 of M!lking Mina

Amanda was far more interested in seeing the sex toys and when Mina held her newest acquisition up for inspection, Amanda whistled and said, “Good for you,” as she gave a nod of admiration.

Unfortunately, even with her vagina’s new teacher, one that was closer to Patrick’s actual size, Mina had discovered the side effect of its use was making her miss him even more.

Life had hit a bad place when you were crying over a massive dildo because it made you miss your boyfriend. She was so not admitting to her friends that she’d cried over a dildo though.

“It doesn’t help that my boobs hurt all the time now. I’m making tons of milk and I’ve gone up like a whole cup size, but it just makes me miss him even more.” She sniffed a little.

“But you like donating the milk, right?” Penelope asked. “You said that makes you feel good.”

“It does.” It did. But it didn’t make up for missing Patrick. Going from being with him all day every day to absolutely nothing had given her the worst withdrawal, and it didn’t seem to be going away.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t just move out there,” Amanda said. She shrugged when Layne made a derogatory noise.

“She can’t uproot her whole life and move across country for a guy,” Layne replied, shaking her head. “Especially one she’s barely known for a month. What if it doesn’t work out?”

“What if it does?” Penelope countered. “Besides, with her job, it’s not like she has to be in a specific location. She’s one of the few people who can just up and move if she decides to.”

Which was something Mina’s own sister had said to her multiple times. But Mina had never had wanderlust like Esther. She’d always been the down-to-earth one, the stay-at-home one, the one who didn’t need to make waves or big sweeping changes to be happy.

Except…

Maybe now she did.

“We don’t even know if Patrick would want her to do that,” Vicky said, coming in as the voice of reason. “Mina, has he said anything to you like that?”

“No… I mean, we talk about me visiting. I know he’d like to come here, but it’s harder for him to arrange his schedule.” Whereas Mina could work from anywhere. Even for a visit, she could keep working while he was at work. “I’ll stay at his place when I do.”

“So why haven’t you gone out yet?” Amanda asked ruthlessly, somehow managing to give the camera such a hard stare that Mina felt like the Domme was looking directly at her.

“Because it feels like too soon? I practically just got back. I don’t want him to think I’m some scary stalker chick who’s going to invade his home because I can’t live without him.” She could live without him. She’d proven it over the past few weeks. It just made her sad.

Sad enough to cry over dildos.

“Okay, so I should go visit him soon. Sooner than planned,” Mina said firmly. “I’ll bring it up with him when we talk tonight. If he wants to see me.”

“Good,” Amanda said. “It’s okay if he does feel like it’s too soon, but there’s nothing wrong with letting him know what you want. Normally, you aren’t the one who needs this pep talk.”

Mina made a face.

“There’s nothing wrong with it unless he freaks out and dumps me because I’m a Stage Five Clinger.”

“Do you think he would actually do that?” challenged Layne.

Well, no.

Mina huffed rather than answering.

It still felt scary. Probably because she’d never felt this strongly about a guy before. She’d definitely never had the urge to up and move herself from her hometown.

But her friends were right.

She could work from anywhere. She could always fly home to visit her family when she wanted to. Esther had done it for a long time. Everyone had always been happy to see her, no one had been upset with her for leaving.

The only thing stopping Mina was herself.

And what Patrick wanted.

Except she didn’t know what he wanted because she hadn’t brought it up. Which wasn’t like her. It just went to show how afraid she was that he might not want the same things she did. Although, if he didn’t, that was okay too. It might hurt a bit, but she’d live, and she’d understand why. They could just take things slower.

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