Page 9 of Bound in Silk

The simple question holds weight, the vulnerability beneath it touching something deep inside me. This is what others don't see—the uncertainty that occasionally cracks Knox's confident exterior, the fear of loss that drives his need to control.

"No," I admit, the truth surprising even me. "Not regrets. Just…adjusting to how quickly everything has changed."

His hand moves to rest against my stomach, the gesture both possessive and reverent. "Some things haven't changed at all.They've just been in suspension, waiting for us to acknowledge them."

The "us" strikes me—not "you," not "me," but "us." As if we're a unit, a partnership, something greater than the sum of our individual selves. The thought should terrify me, should trigger all my fears about losing my identity in his overwhelming presence. Instead, it brings an unexpected comfort.

"Why did you wait?" I ask, genuinely curious. "For me to come to you, I mean. You could have pushed harder. Could have simply taken what you wanted."

His expression grows serious, his fingers threading through my hair in a gesture both possessive and tender. "Because it needed to be your choice this time. Your surrender, freely given. Not taken, not coerced, not manipulated."

"That's…surprisingly self-aware," I observe, studying his face for signs of the calculated strategy I'm accustomed to.

He laughs, the sound rumbling through his chest beneath my palm. "I'm capable of growth, Seraphina. Eighteen months without you provided ample time for reflection on where I went wrong."

"And where was that, exactly?" I can't help pushing, needing to hear him acknowledge the issues that drove us apart.

His expression sobers. "I tried to contain you when I should have been supporting you. Treated you as a possession to be protected rather than a partner to be cherished. Confused control with care." His fingers trace my cheekbone with unexpected gentleness. "I won't make those mistakes again."

The sincerity in his voice, the unexpected humility in his admission, cracks something open inside me—a shell of resistance I've maintained since returning to New York, since being carried from the altar, perhaps since walking out of his life eighteen months ago. Because the truth—the terrifying, undeniable truth—is that despite everything, despite thekidnapping and the island imprisonment and the high-handed methods, I'm falling for Knox Vance all over again.

No, that's not quite right. I never stopped loving him in the first place. Just convinced myself that love wasn't enough when balanced against the loss of self I feared in his overwhelming presence.

The realization brings a wave of panic so intense I have to close my eyes against it. Because if I admit I love him—if I acknowledge that what's between us goes far beyond physical chemistry or the baby we're having—then I'm vulnerable in a way I swore I'd never be again. Exposed to the full force of Knox Vance's personality, his determination, his absolute certainty about what's best for us.

"Hey." His voice cuts through my spiraling thoughts, his hand tilting my chin up to meet his gaze. "Where did you go just now?"

"I'm scared," I admit, the words escaping before I can censor them. "Of this. Of us. Of how easy it would be to lose myself in you again."

Instead of the dismissive reassurance I half expect, Knox considers my words with genuine attention. "You won't lose yourself," he says finally. "I won't let that happen any more than you would. The woman I love is fierce, independent, challenging. Dimming those qualities would be like cutting the facets off a diamond—it might make it easier to hold, but it would destroy what makes it precious in the first place."

The woman I love. He says it so casually, so matter-of-factly, as if it's the most obvious truth in the world. And perhaps to Knox, it is. He's never been one to equivocate about what he wants, what he feels, what he knows to be true.

"I'm not the same person I was eighteen months ago," I tell him, needing him to understand. "I've built a life, a career, an identity separate from you. I can't give that up."

"I'm not asking you to." His hand moves from my face to curve around the nape of my neck, a possessive gesture tempered with tenderness. "I'm asking you to build something new with me. Something that honors who you've become while acknowledging what we've always been to each other."

"And what's that?" I ask, my voice barely above a whisper.

His smile is slow, confident, yet tinged with a vulnerability that makes my heart ache. "Inevitable."

The word hangs between us, loaded with meaning. Inevitable. As if all roads, all choices, all possible futures eventually lead back to this—to us, to Knox and Seraphina, to the connection that neither time nor distance nor my own stubborn resistance could sever.

"I'm falling for you again," I confess, the admission torn from some place deeper than conscious thought. "And it terrifies me."

"Good." His hand tightens slightly at my neck, his eyes darkening with an emotion too complex to name. "It should terrify you. What's between us isn't safe or comfortable or predictable. It's consuming. Transformative. The kind of connection most people spend their entire lives searching for and never find."

"What if I get lost in it?" The fear that's haunted me since our first relationship surfaces, raw and honest. "What if there's no Seraphina left, just Knox Vance's woman?"

"That won't happen," he promises, absolute certainty in his voice. "Because the woman I love—the woman I need—isn't some mindless extension of myself. She's fire and challenge and stubborn independence. She's the only person who's ever made me question my certainties, who's forced me to be better, stronger, more worthy of what we have together."

His words settle something restless inside me, offering a vision of possibility I hadn't fully considered—that perhaps with Knox, I don't have to choose between being loved and beingmyself. That perhaps the very qualities that make me fight his control are exactly what he values most, even as they frustrate him.

"I can't promise forever," I whisper, needing to maintain some boundary, some protection against the all-consuming nature of what's between us. "Not yet."

"You don't have to," he responds, pulling me closer until our foreheads touch. "Time is on my side, Seraphina. Always has been."

And as his mouth claims mine in a kiss that's equal parts possession and promise, I can't help thinking he's right. That this reconciliation, this reconnection, this inevitable gravitational pull between us has been written in the stars since the moment we met.

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