Page 36 of Beguiled and Broken

Dear Diary,

I’ll follow him until the ends of the earth where no one can find us. Not my family, not anyone. I know he wants to be with me.

-Cat

Dear Diary,

It was painful to watch him marry someone else. To watch another woman, standing where I should’ve been. It was unbearable. I’m glad I at least got to talk to him. We’ll be reunited soon, my love.

Sop-Cat

“I don’t understand what this means. She was at our wedding? Why does it look like she started to write something, but crossed it out?” Lex’s eyebrows were up, and she looked more worried by the minute. As scared as I was, I kept reading.

Dear Diary,

Illinois isn’t so bad. It’s not Vomero or New York, but it’ll do for now. At least until I can bring Vinny back home. I’m going to the restaurant later. I know he’ll hire me. He just needs to see me.

-Cat

Dear Diary,

It’s been so long since I’ve made an entry. Life has been almost perfect working next to Vinny day in and day out. He’s always at the restaurant. I almost fell last night but Vinny saved me. The way he held me in his arms and looked into my eyes was everything I needed.

-Cat

I remembered when Vinny had told me about that night. He made it out like it was nothing, and maybe it wasn’t to him, but it was definitelysomethingto her. My hands shook.

Dear Diary,

I’m finally living with Vinny. It’s the most amazing feeling to have him so close. When we met in the kitchen in the middle of the night it was like the air was sucked from my lungs. We had to be quiet. He scared me at first because I didn’t see him coming, but being able to see him without his shirt on… I could’ve stood there all night with him.

-Cat

“The way they met up in the kitchen. Is this fucking serious?” Lex was silent.

Dear Diary,

Dinner with Vinny last night was wonderful. He loved my cooking, and he stood up for me. He cares about me. He’s always rescuing me and making sure I’m ok. I’m going to do my best to make sure he always has everything he needs. I want to be who he needs, and I want him to feel comfortable enough coming to me… for anything. Hopefully tomorrow our dinner goes a little smoother.

-Cat

Dear Diary,

The way Vinny claimed me and fucked me was a dream. The way I straddled him, and the way he held me was all I needed that night. Everyone’s interrogations made me so angry. I needed that release and to just yell out his name with abandon. I’m getting hot all over again reliving that night in my head. I need more time. I need more time with him.

-Cat

“Lex!” I broke down into a sob. “He cheated on me…with her! He fucked her! Oh god!”

Lex rushed to my side. “No fucking way. It’s impossible. Vinny is obsessed with you. There’s no way he would cheat on you.” She put her arm around me.

“It’s right here. She wrote it right here. How else am I supposed to take this?” I waved the diary in the air.

“Therehasto be an explanation. Let him explain, B. I don’t believe for a second that Vinny cheated. If Catarina fucked up your shop, who knows what else she’s done. I trust that bitch as much as I trust someone who likes pineapple on pizza. You at least need to listen to his side of the story if you want the entire picture.”

“I need to finish reading. Can you grab me some tissue?” Lex ran upstairs to grab tissue as I continued to read.

Dear Diary,

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