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It’s fine by me.

I’ll pick you up at 1 on Saturday.

Sunflower

I’ll see you then.

How was your lunch?

I tried a new recipe.

Me

Amazing. Thank you!

It would’ve been better if you were here with me.

Sunflower

I'm glad you liked it.

Did you give Clifford the treat I put in there?

Me

He loved it. :)

I miss you, Selah.

Sunflower

I miss you too.

I start to text ‘I love you,’ but decide against it. She said more today than she has been. That’s gotta be agood thing. Plus, I’m giving her space, and she asked for more time. I can wait. I will wait.

“Saturday,” I repeat to myself. I’m unsure of how we’re going to pull this off, but I wasn’t going to miss another chance to be around her.

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that dreaded ‘l-word’

Selah

Manhattan, NY | April 24, 2024

Today’s sessionwith Dr. Garnett is unique,to say the least. I think she’s hoping for a breakthrough today. We’re diving into my self-sabotaging and fear of commitment. I understand now that all my efforts to protect myself have done more harm than good. When I mentioned we’re still going to the wedding together, she made an interesting face and said we’d unpack that in this session. That only made me more nervous.

“Why aren’t you speaking to Greyson? What happened?”

Just diving right into it, huh?

“I’m not speaking to Grey because he told me he loved me. I freaked out and ran.”

She jots something down on her notepad.

“Why did you feel the need to run?”

“I don’t know-I-I’m not proud of it. I just didn’t know how to process anything at that moment, so I removed myself from the situation.”

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