I fill the vase with water and place the roses inside. “I don’t think anyone has ever gotten me roses before,” I say.
“Well, that’s just a shame. Get used to getting them more from me. That is if you want them.”
“Let’s talk about that.” I lead him to our gray leather couch and we sit. “I’m scared, Kaison. I’m scared of losing this love that I’m feeling for you.”
His eyes light up with hope. He’d looked a bit unsure before. “So you admit you still love me?”
“Of course, silly. I can’t just turn that off. Not when you’re so hot and muscley and have that stubble thing going on.”
He rubs a hand over his jaw, and that just makes everything so much better. I pick up a coaster from the side table and start fanning myself. But the thing is so stinking small it doesn’t do much to cool me down. What was I thinking, anyway? Like fanning would cool me off around Kaison. The guy is smoking. And he looks like home. This is exactly why I knew I had to stay away from him. Because when he’s around me, I can’t resist him.
“So you’re attracted to me, and you’re in love with me. But you don’t want a relationship?”
“I—” I hesitate, searching for the right words. “I don’t know, Kaison. I’m still figuring all this out.”
“Why do you think you’re going to lose me?”
“Because everyone I love leaves.”
“Do you love Farah?” he asks.
“Well, yes.”
“She’s still around.”
I hadn’t thought of it that way.
“Not everyone is going to leave you, Ariana. I don’t plan to ever do that. I don’t care what Blair told you. I’m here and I’m sticking around as long as you’ll have me. I have no feelings left for her. After the way I feel about you, I can see now that I didn’t really love Blair. I loved the idea of finding someone who wanted to be with me. I was mourning the loss of a serious relationship. Not her.”
“That… that makes sense.” A huge burden lifts off my heart. “You mean you’re going to stick around for real?” I feel so scared, so vulnerable.
It’s like Kaison can pick up on that because his eyes are the most tender and loving that I’ve ever seen them. “I don’t think you can get rid of me. I’m madly in love with you, Ariana. I was a fool to let you walk away like that.”
“Well, I did tell you I wanted you to. You were only respecting what I was saying.”
“And that’s a good thing. But it doesn’t mean I’m not going to try again after the dust has settled a little.”
I nod. “That’s fair.”
“I had a little convincing from Weston and Callie.”
“Oh, really?” Now this I want to hear.
“They ordered a helicopter for me to ride back in and had my car sent over. I was going to come see you that night, but then it got late and I figured you were asleep.”
I laughed. “I totally wasn’t. I was up late finishing your book.”
His eyes light up. “You finished it?”
“Yep. And I’ve already bought book two. I’ll probably start on that tonight.”
“Not if I have anything to do with it,” he growls low in his throat, and goosebumps raise on my arms.
“So you’re saying you have plans for me?” I ask.
“Have you ever been in a helicopter?” he asks.
I shake my head.