Page 79 of Sins & Secrets

He’s not a good man. He planned my husband’s murder in cold blood.

But he’s damn good to me in ways my husband wasn’t. If what he said was true ... I take in a ragged breath before sitting on the edge of the bed, still only covered by the towel from my shower. The mattress groans as my eyes close and I lean back, collapsing on the bed.

A thought has taken over, one I least expected. I’m still angry with Jace and the more I want to believe Mason, the more I think Jace really did it. He had a woman killed.

How could I not have known what kind of man Jace was? I already know he lied to me, that he stole from me. I have evidence of that from bank account statements and the deed to the apartment he took his mistress to.Or mistresses.I’ll never know.

If you’ll lie, you’ll cheat. If you’ll cheat, you’ll steal. If you’ll steal, you’ll kill.

I know for a fact Jace did two of those things. Three, technically, since he used my money and not his to buy that property.

I’m disgusted in every way possible. What’s worse is that if Jace hadn’t passed, maybe I never would have known. We’d still be together and I’d still be living a lie, completely blind to it all. Utterly naïve.

The reality is sickening. I do believe Mason. I believe my husband had a woman killed. But that doesn’t mean moving forward I choose to be with a murderer. How could I ever trust Mason again? How could I ever look at him the same?

If only the shower could rinse it all away. Or a pill could erase my memory.

But then I’d be back to the life I once had, not knowing a thing about the lies and corruption, all the sins I’ve been blind to.

Defeated but still moving forward, I mumble, “To hell with going back to that.” I stretch my back as I stand up, knowing I need to get dressed for bed before Mason barges in here. I don’t have the luxury of being lost in my thoughts.

One month, and then what?It’s pointless to truly consider the question because I don’t believe Mason will let me go.Besides, what would I do if in one month he lets me walk out the door?

I pretend that I don’t know how that scenario plays out. I go back to being alone, but never trust anyone again? That’s really what hurts the most, the lies and secrets make me feel as though no one is truthful. The two men I gave everything I ever had to turned out to be liars and murderers. I huff a pathetic and humorless laugh.

My girlfriends were right, I really do pick winners.

I’m only able to take two steps to the bathroom door before hearing the door at the end of the hall open. I stare at my closed door, waiting for Mason to enter, but then I hear another open and shut only a moment later with a click that echoes down the hall.

My forehead pinches with confusion as I hear it again. It’s as if someone is checking inside of each room in the hallway. I almost call out to tell Mason that I’m in here and I’m not hiding, but something eerie stops me. A chill I’ve never felt before, like a grave warning from someone or something watching over me runs down every inch of my skin and my heart races with sudden fear.

Another door opens, then closes. And this last one was closer.

All I can hear is my heart pounding in my chest as I get down on my knees as quietly as I can and crawl under the bed.Something’s wrong. I hear the door next to the master bedroom close as I try to turn onto my side, but I can’t. I’m stuck, wedged between the floor and the bed frame, but it’s enough. My heart beats wildly and I try to convince myself it’s just Mason and I’m being stupidly foolish again. Keeping as still as possible, I watch the door only six feet or so away, the light from the hallway faintly pouring in through the crack and shining against the gleaming hardwood.

Click. It opens softly, and two shiny black shoes walk in softly.It’s not Mason.I know it’s not. Fear fills my veins. Violently and with a chill that’s paralyzing.

I can’t stop the adrenaline from pumping through my blood as the shoes leave my periphery. The footsteps thud to my right, but I can’t see him. I hear the bathroom door open and terror runs through me, wondering if I’ve left the light on. If whoever it is that’s come up here will know I’m in this room.

Steam will still be on the bathroom mirror and he’s going to see where I’ve messed the bed up from lying there just a moment ago. My heart rages so hard that I swear it’s trying to leave my body. If he touches the comforter, he’ll feel that it’s warm. He’ll know I was here only moments ago.

“Jules?” My eyes widen and flash to the open doorway as I hear Mason call for me from downstairs. I can faintly hear him walking to the bottom of the staircase, and I can practically see him standing down there. Given his casual tone, he’s completely unaware there’s someone else in the house.

God help me; I want to scream.

The black shoes quickly leave the bedroom but not so quick that the man ran. His steps were silent. He gently closes the door and the click is barely heard. I’m caught between wanting to scream out to warn Mason and saving myself.

Whoever it is that was in this room a moment ago doesn’t answer Mason and he doesn’t go down the stairs; instead he goes to the left, farther into the house.

I didn’t think it possible, but my heart slams harder as I hear Mason start to climb the stairs.

Move!my inner voice begs me. My palms are clammy against the wooden floors as I drag myself across the floor.Do something!I don’t know who’s here, I don’t know what they’ve come for. But I can’t stay here and let Mason walk into what could be his death sentence.

I crawl out as quickly as I can, the rug beside the bed burning against my forearms and the metal from the bed frame scraping against my back, but I’m out with time enough to open the door just as Mason reaches the top of the stairs. I swing the door open prepared to scream and when I do, the man is standing right there, staring at the stairwell with a gun in his hand. The thin silencer on the end is pointed straight ahead, right at where Mason should be in only a moment.

“Mason!” I yell out his name, or at least I think I do. I can’t hear anything but a loud ringing and my body is so numb from fear and the heat coursing through my body that I can barely feel a thing. As if I’m not even here. As if I’ve left my body, yet I’m still standing where I was.

The end of the gun points straight at me, only feet away with nothing in between us.

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