Page 45 of Grown Folks Confessions: Black Lush

I’d been running from a serious relationship with Ares for so long because I was afraid of what would happen to me if we didn’t work out. I almost thought I got over that fear when we accidently married, but I hadn’t. I wasn’t ready then even though I thought I was.

The thing about growing up was that it wasn’t enough to just age. You had to learn from your mistakes. You had to put into practice the lessons that came with maturity. You couldn’t wake up one day and just assume that you were grown and would have all the answers. In fact, a part of me felt like we never stopped cultivating in ways that made us wiser human beings.

All the times I thought I’d been ready for what life threw my way had been bullshit. I was ready now though. I knew it in my soul. Felt it in the way we love-fucked on that chair because that’s what it was with us.

Not infatuation.

Not strong like.

Not only passion.

“I love you, Ares,” I uttered, my eyes finding his as I continued to slide him in and out of my pussy.

And that fire I’d seen in his eyes? Well, we were headed to purgatory because it was so fucking hot, we had to be in hell.

“La, I love you so damn much,” he groaned, his hips bucking as he came so hard, his dick pushed even farther into my gut.

Not wanting to be left behind, I angled myself once more, rewarded by a bursting sea of bright white stars as I succumbed to everything I was feeling and all the emotions I’d kept buried deep within for entirely too long.

Ares held me tightly as I collapsed on top of him, our breathing sporadic. I was so exhausted, I could have dozed off, but I didn’t want to miss whatever the rest of the day had in store.

I only closed my eyes for a few seconds to soak in the moment, while Ares whispered over and over again the words I’d waited my entire life to hear.

I love you.

I love you.

I.

Love.

You.

“You’re my everything,” I whispered, meaning every word.

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We fucked three more times, the next time unforgiving since Ares still couldn’t believe he’d let himself come before me. And since the last time was quick and against the wall in one of the common areas, I was sure Jade’s guards saw us.Watched us.

Neither of us gave a shit though.

In a way, I kind of liked the audience.

That was the thing about places like Lush and First Class Fantasy. There was no room for second-guessing your decisions. Even though Lush wasn’t open yet, the sex dungeon had a certain charged energy about it, and although I hadn’t been to The Mating Lounge, I was sure it held that same electric current.

As promised, Ares took me home, but we both knew he wasn’t leaving, unless …

“Do you have Ajax tonight?” I asked, referring to his son. I’d been around Ajax a couple times when Ares brought him to mutual friends’ parties, and that adorable little dude was a hugger and a breasts grabber already. Something I was sure Ares had taught him.

Audrea and I were friendly, but I still felt like we just tolerated each other. From what I’d overheard when he updated others, co-parenting was going well though. And damned if Ajax wasn’t a mini Ares with his caramel complexion and a head full of curls.

“He’s with his mom tonight,” Ares answered.

I nodded as he parallel parked a little way from my place since most of the street parking was already taken given it was going on two o’clock in the morning.

Ares walked with me to the door of my townhouse, the air around us buzzing with anticipation even though he’d fucked me senseless several times already.

Inserting my key, I finally asked, “Would you like to come inside?”

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