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“You make me forget whathappened.Do you still have nightmares?”

Lacey shook her head.“Not anymore.Theystopped when I was around twenty-five, twenty-six.I don’t knowwhat happened or why they stopped.I guess I kind of just grew outof it or got over it.”She shrugged.“It’s still new and raw foryou.I’ve had the time to move on.You’re stillfighting.”

“The nightmares are theworst.”

She shook her head.“They’re not theworst.You can always wake up from a dream.Living, that’s theworst.When you’re living and you’re gripped by fear it stops youfrom living, from connecting with other people.”She tucked somehair behind her ear.“You’re asleep for five to seven hours a day.The rest you’re spent awake, aware of everything around you.Forme, that was the worst.I stared at everyone wondering what theywere thinking, planning.You can’t get away from that kind of fear.At night, I was alone, and I could handle the dreams.I’d get aglass of water, sit and remember those men were not in my life.Sometime, Dalton would be there, and we’d talk.During the day,everyone was awake.You can never get away from theliving.”

“I never saw it likethat.”

“You had a family of yourown who loved and cared about you.”

“So did you.”

Lacey shook her head.“They were not myreal family.Until Gonzalez took out our parents I didn’t spend alot of time at the club.Dalton wasn’t my friend.I don’t eventhink he liked me.We were thrust together like a bunch of orphans.We made do with each other.”That’s where they were different.Whizz had his family in The Skulls.She’d had to make do with theSavage Brothers.“It’s why I wanted to help Butch.I was with theclub because I felt a duty to see it through.The revenge.Butch,he was part of the club, but he grew up and away from it all.Butchhad some illogical need to help his past.In the end, he tried tostop us, though.He did give us the wrong information.I trulybelieve he was going to tell you the truth.”

“I’m working on getting Butchback within the club.I can’t guarantee that he’ll get the samekind of position he held, but he might still get hiscut.”

“I’d really like to help withthat.I would hate to think that I and the rest of the SavageBrothers took away his family.”She finished her breakfast.“Iheard him arguing with Danny and Dalton, telling them revenge waspointless.I wished they’d listened to him.”

Butch had waited too long to getshit done with the club.He should have come to them when theSavage Brothers made their presence known.Lacey wished she’dtalked to him away from Danny and Dalton.She might have been ableto talk some sense to him.Lacey had seen Danny shoot him withoutany remorse.Whoever Danny’s contact had been in town had given himthe true location of Gonzalez.She didn’t know who it was.Whizz took somenotes out of his wallet and placed them on the counter.Togetherthey made their way out toward his bike.She liked being besidehim, facing the world together as a team.

“You could adopt,” Whizzsaid, handing her a helmet.

“Huh?”

“Children, you couldadopt.”

Lacey started laughing.“I couldn’tadopt.”

“Why not?”

“I’ve got no home, no money, nobackground.I’ve got no career, or life to offer them.No one intheir right mind would let me adopt a baby.”She made light of hersituation.The truth, she was so damn hurt that it made her sick toher stomach.When Dalton offered, she turned him down, but she’dalso done her research to see if it was an option.It wasn’t.Itwas hard to go through life craving something you could never have.Every option that had once been open to her over twenty years agowas shut down to her.When she left high school and went along withthe Savage Brothers, she’d sealed her own fate in not being able tohave what she wanted.The kids were lost to her.

“I could give you the home andthe money.I’d stand by you, Lacey.”

Before putting the helmet on, shestared at Whizz.“Have you lost your mind?”

He held his hands out in a shrug.“I don’tknow what I’ve lost, but I know what I’ve gained.There is no womanout there for me but you.You’re the only woman I want in my life,Lacey.I’d die for you, kill for you.The club knows I’m going toclaim you and that’ll make you my old lady.If you want kids, ahome, a family, say the word, and I’ll go out and get them foryou.”

His words were bringing tears to hereyes.“You don’t mean that.”No one had ever done anything soselfless for her in her life.

“I do.”He reached out to cup hercheek.Before she could protest his lips brushed hers.The kisswasn’t possessive or hard, yet it was filled with so much passion.“For you, Lacey, I will move heaven and earth to get what you want.Tell me what you want, and I’ll get it to you.You’re my woman.I’mnot letting you go.”

Lacey gasped, looking around them as Whizzgot on one knee before her.Her heart was racing.After everythingthey’d been through, this was the last thing she thought he’d dofor her.He took hold of her hand.

“Lacey, you’re a crazy woman withblue hair, but you’re my woman.”He pressed a hand to his heart.“You’re in here.I didn’t think I was capable of love, that it hadbeen torn out of me.I was wrong.I love you.I want to live therest of my life with you.”Tears filled her eyes.This wassomething out of a fairytale, a biker fairytale.This was not whathappened to people like her.“Will you do me the greatest honor ofbecoming my wife?”

She was shocked still as he removed hiscut, his symbol of the club he was part of.“I don’t have anengagement ring, but I have this.I want to marry you more thananything.”

For several seconds she simply staredat him in shock.“Yes.”The words came out of her mouth as if theywere spoken by someone else.“Yes, I’ll marry you.”

Whizz got to his feet, wrapping thejacket around her shoulders.The leather smelled of him.

“Let’s go to thebeach.”

She’d go everywhere with him.Whizz wentto climb on the bike, but she stopped him.Gripping his arm, shecupped his cheek.She pressed a kiss to his lips.“I loveyou.”

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