Page 120 of The Road to Ruined

But Declan just stares at the mutilated skin on his back until the door closes behind him. I know what he's thinking—it could have been him.

"Luca…" I pull the cane out of the bag and hand it to him.

"Give me the bag, too," Declan says.

"I'm fine," Luca says. "I need to get used to it."

"No, you don't," he says, taking it from his shoulder. "Bye, sweetheart." He leans in and kisses me on the lips. "I love you. I'll see you so soon."

"I love you, too."

"I don't want to leave her with him," Luca says.

"She wants to go to the wedding and say goodbye," Declan tells him. "We can't stay—we need to get the plane ready. Besides, we can't risk being caught on camera the day she disappears. The police think you're dead and I'm in Russia, and they've stopped looking for me. I want to keep it that way. She'll be okay."

"Can I walk with you?" I ask.

"No, kitten. I'm sorry."

I sigh. "Not one single day, Luca." I stand on my toes and press my lips to his. "There's nothing wrong with you."

I meet Declan's eyes over Luca's shoulder. I wonder if he remembers telling me the same thing.

"I love you, Teagan," Luca says.

"I love you, too. B—"

"Don't say that. I'll see you tonight."

"Okay. See you tonight."

I walk them to the door, and when it closes behind them, I feel just a little more empty than I was before.

A little afraid, too.

Shortly after I crawl back into bed, Sebastian emerges from the bathroom. I watch in the dark as he dresses and pours himself a glass of water before lying on the small sofa.

"Sebastian? Will you—"

"No. I'm not going to lie in your boyfriends' cum stains with you."

I get out of bed and cross the room toward him.

"No, Teagan," he says again when I stop beside the sofa.

"But I missed you," I tell him. I climb on top of him anyway, wrapping my arms around his back and resting my head on his chest. I close my eyes and breathe him in. "Just let me."

Sebastian sighs. He doesn't say no.

He wraps his arms around my back, and we fall asleep.

"Get up," Sebastian says.

Luca's shirt is pushed up to my chest, and I'm naked from the waist down. Sebastian's hard dick presses against the inside of my thigh through his pants.

I want it.

I move my hips over him, reaching for his face to bring his lips to mine, but he quickly shrugs me off and climbs out from under me.

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