Page 33 of Sabastian

Chapter 18

Sabastian

Oh hell, the last personI wanted to see was Cam.Robby was the kind of man who knew everyone and pretended he was friends with them, and he was nonthreatening and they brought him into their confidence and their circles.Where did he even meet these men?I wondered looking at how easily Robby flirted and ingratiated himself into this group of sophisticated, educated, well-to-do men as my mother would say.

Robby was likable, but he was dangerous because he always seemed to have ulterior motives for doing things.He knew I was coming to New York to shop and shoot some footage for my social media presence, and because I was given a plane ticket first class, a free hotel and meals and he was eager to capitalize on that by telling me about a party and all the handsome available men who would be there.

At the last minute the executive and owner of the Westlake department stores asked me to meet him and his board of directors where he could thank me personally for singlehandedly saving his company.

It seemed somebody appreciated what I’d meant to them.Not that handsome goodlooking man named Cameron who locked eyes with me as I entered this party.The host who greeted us said he had to check on something, and left Robby to introduce me around to his friends and some strangers.

The first person was Justin whom I’d heard Robby talk about incessantly—how he was a self-made millionaire, how he started with nothing and created a company and then sold it for millions and went on to his next passion which was repairing and owning exotic cars and soon became even richer and he was single.

I knew if Robby had anything to do with arranging for me to meet Justin, I should have been aware it would be because he wanted the dude himself and didn’t know how to get close to him.That was his style.He used others to get close to the real target.And that target was a man who was rich and available.

In Robby’s defense, he knew I had no interest for a man outside of Cam.I ached for Cam.I longed to be in his arms, but he didn’t appreciate me, therefore, I distanced myself from him and continued my life.Empty as it was.

Robby tried to tell me to forget Cam, but there was something inside of me that knew if I went away from him for years and I happened to see him one day it would only be him.

I’d never been attracted to the same kind of men that Robby found attractive.I should have known that was his sole mission to get to New York, because he’d heard that Justin would be there, and it had nothing to do with getting me out of my depression.

Robby fashioned this meet up in such a way that Cam, the man of my dreams, might be thinking I was here to be with Justin, when it was Robby who wanted to attract Justin’s attention.Well, it worked and too well.I watched Robby’s disappointed face as he stared wistfully at me and Justin walking together.

Justin grabbed my hand and led me to Cam.Cam appeared to have had one drink too many when he glared up at me.He looked so handsome in this semi-drunk state.“Cameron, this is it.Do you remember what I said about being single?Well, this super-hot cute guy might change my mind.”Don’t do me any favors, Justin,I thought with a closed smile.Don’t I have something to say about that?Robby will you get me out of this?I turned around looking for Robby and as usual he’d disappeared.

“Cameron, I want you to meet—”

“I know who he is.Do you know?”Cam said in a dry humorless voice as he placed the large glass to his lips.“Did he even give you his real name?”Justin narrowed his eyes and looked in my direction.

“What do you mean?”At first I thought Cam would tell all the things I did to and with him to Justin in front of his friends flanking him and looking up at me.The only one who knew me, and the relationship I had with Cam was Kyle, and he remained quiet.I glanced around for his other friend Jason.Good.He wasn’t close.

“This is Don,” Kyle said, meeting my glance.

“I know him,” Don said, pointing and slurring his voice.He too had had too much to drink.

“If you guessed Sabastian, then you’re right.Please, excuse us because we’re going to get coffee.I think Don had too much to drink,” Kyle said, helping Don to his feet.And Kyle reached for Don’s hand and led him away in the direction where the buffet and coffee were available on a table.

“What do you think, Cameron?Isn’t he beautiful?”Justin questioned.

“I’d say he was the most beautiful young man at this party, but isn’t he too young for you?Didn’t you say you wanted a man close to your age.You’re thirty-five aren’t you?”

“What are you trying to say, Cameron, and why are you offering information to this young man when I haven’t had time to get acquainted with him.”Those two had completely forgotten I was standing there.And it had something to do with their competitive nature and the idea that Cam had been upset with Justin holding my hand.I watched as Cam glanced up and down between my eyes and our hands.When I tried to drop my hand, Justin held it tighter and me closer.

Justin was a top alright, and he wanted to let me know, by taking charge.I made that mistake with Cam even though I knew I was a bottom.I mistakenly assumed he was a bottom simply because he was older than I was.That proved how inexperienced I’d been when it came to men.We never got the chance to have a conversation about our sexual preferences because we both wanted each other that night.That relationship we had, had come to an abrupt end over nothing, and that proved how impractical and inflexible Cam had been.

With a little understanding on both our parts we wouldn’t be here with different people, and men who were incompatible with us.

What Justin didn’t know was I was in love with the dude he was trying to compete with.“Why don’t you grab one of those cute bottoms who’d love to be with a man your age, and let’s take a stroll over to Rockefeller Center, and see the Christmas tree,” Justin remarked.“Isn’t that the reason you’re here to capture the love you had for Brett.”

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