Page 35 of Making a Killing

‘Am I so transparent?’

‘Yup,’ says Sargent, turning back to her screen.

‘But he wasn’t supposed to be back till Christmas, was he?’ says Ev. ‘That’s what they told us.’

Sargent shrugs. ‘Maybe something came up.’

‘It’d have to be something big,’ says Ev, her face thoughtful. ‘You don’t drag someone back from spook duty for a poxy speeding ticket, now do you.’

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Adam Fawley

25 July 2024

11.58

‘What do you mean, one of mine?’

‘There was a hair found on the duct tape used to tie up the victim. Not, as it turns out, one of hers.’

‘I still don’t understand –’

‘There was no match for the victim in the database, but there was to the hair.’

I’m none the wiser. ‘So?’

He pauses. Whatever it is, here it comes.

‘It’s Daisy Mason.’

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MY SHADOW JOURNAL

My name is

We’ll come back to that

I will approach this process with openness and honesty, in a bid to understand who I am, and how that person came to be, good and bad, light and dark. I value my own growth and know that it is only by embracing both sides of myself that I will find healing.

Having made that commitment to yourself, let’s get started

What is Shadow Journalling?

The idea of a ‘Shadow Self’ goes back centuries, and can be found in literature and paintings across the world. Probably the most famous example isDr Jekyll and Mr Hyde, written in 1886. In the first years of the 20th century the celebrated psychiatrist Carl Jung formulated the concept of the shadow into a theory of the human mind. Jung believed that our ‘Shadow’ is the dark and hidden side of our psyche, the part we either repress or deny, because we associate it with negative feelings and behaviours that make us frightened or ashamed.

‘The shadow personifies everything that the subject refuses to acknowledge about himself’

Carl Jung

But suppressing our Shadow can be damaging. It can lead to self-destructive patterns, toxic relationships, and more serious mental health problems such as depression and self-harm.

So what can you do about it? Jung believed that only by reintegrating the Shadow with the conscious self can we achieve a whole and healthy mind. One way to do this is by confronting your Shadow – looking at it face to face. By doing that, you can take control of it, rather than have it control you. That’s where Shadow Journalling comes in.

This app has been designed to help you work through your confrontation with your Shadow in a structured process. It will help you explore how your Shadow has impacted your life, and help you towards healthier patterns in the future. You’ll feel kinder towards yourself, make better and more positive decisions, improve your self-esteem, and become more confident.

Some practical things

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