"Both," I admit, adjusting my grip on the leashes as Barney spots a squirrel and nearly dislocates my shoulder in his enthusiasm to give chase. "Though I maintain my position on the beret."
Her laugh floats through the crisp morning air, drawing the attention of our client—a nervous first-time dog owner who seems perpetually on the verge of apologizing for her puppy's exuberance.
"Don't worry, Ms. Chen," Josie assures her. "Elliot was much worse when he first started joining me on these walks. At least your puppy doesn't have a color-coded leash system and a spreadsheet tracking optimal potty break intervals."
"That was one time," I mutter, though I can't help smiling at the memory of my initial attempts to impose order on the inherently chaotic process of walking multiple dogs through Central Park. "And the spreadsheet was perfectly reasonable."
"It was adorable," Josie corrects, her eyes soft with affection despite her teasing. "Just like your alphabetized spice rack and your insistence that towels must be folded in exact thirds."
Ms. Chen looks between us with the slightly confused expression of someone witnessing a private joke they're not privy to. "You two work together often?" she asks.
"He's my fiancé," Josie explains, the word still sending a pleasant jolt through me despite how many times I've heard it in the past three months. She holds up her left hand, where a simple emerald ring catches the morning light. "He helps onSaturdays. Keeps me company and pretends not to be secretly bonding with every dog in the pack."
"I'm merely providing support," I say with as much dignity as I can muster while holding leashes attached to a Yorkie in a pink sweater, a three-legged Pitbull mix with an unfortunate flatulence issue, and Barney, who has never met a mud puddle he didn't consider a personal invitation.
"Sure you are, Counselor." Josie winks at me before turning back to Ms. Chen. "Now, let's work on loose-leash walking. The trick is consistency..."
I fall into step slightly behind them, content to observe as Josie works her magic on both anxious owner and energetic puppy. In the year since our reconciliation, my life has transformed in ways I never anticipated. The penthouse that once reflected perfect order now houses Josie's organized chaos—canvases leaning against walls, dog beds in three different rooms, her clothes mingling with mine in the closet I once arranged by color and season.
The living room I rarely used has become a lived-in space where movie nights happen on our new, purposely oversized sectional. The formal dining room that hosted exactly zero dinner parties in the five years I owned the apartment now features a massive table where Josie hosts what she calls "Misfit Dinners"—gatherings of her friends, my colleagues, and an ever-changing roster of artists, dog owners, and anyone else she decides needs community for an evening.
Most significant of all, my home office has been relocated to make room for her art studio. The spare bedroom with the best natural light now houses her canvases, her paints, her creative explosion of supplies and inspirations. I work in a smaller space off the living room, listening to the sounds of her creative process—her off-key singing, her conversations with the dogs,her occasional triumphant shout when a piece comes together as she envisioned.
Her first gallery show is scheduled for next month. Blake Sullivan—the same man who once helped her make me jealous—is featuring her work in his New York satellite gallery. The irony isn't lost on either of us.
"Earth to Elliot," Josie's voice breaks through my reflections. "You're doing that thing again where you look like you're plotting a hostile takeover while staring at nothing."
I blink, realizing Ms. Chen has departed with her puppy and we're alone with our pack of regulars. "Just thinking."
"Dangerous pastime." She takes a couple of the leashes from me, her fingers lingering against mine longer than necessary. "What deep legal conundrum had you so distracted? Something about the Harrison merger?"
"I was thinking about you, actually." I capture her hand before she can pull away, bringing it to my lips in a gesture that would have felt foreign to me a year ago but now comes naturally. "About how thoroughly you've infiltrated every aspect of my life."
"Infiltrated," she repeats, eyebrows rising. "Like a spy? Or a virus?"
"Like a revolution," I clarify. "Unexpected. Overwhelming. Completely necessary."
Her expression softens. "Who knew Elliot Carrington was secretly a romantic beneath all those power suits?"
"Only you," I admit. "It's always only been you, Josie."
We continue our circuit of the park, the dogs setting a leisurely pace as they investigate every interesting smell along the path. The proposal hadn't been planned—none of the most important moments with Josie ever are. I'd simply looked up one ordinary Tuesday evening, watching her dance around our kitchen to music only she could hear while attempting to cooksomething that involved an alarming amount of garlic, and known with absolute certainty that I wanted this chaos in my life forever.
The ring had been in my desk drawer for weeks by then, waiting for the perfect moment that never seemed to arrive. So I'd asked her right there, in our kitchen, with no speech prepared, no romantic setting arranged, just the absolute conviction that this woman who had upended every careful plan I'd ever made was the only future I wanted.
She'd said yes before I even finished asking, then proceeded to burn whatever was in the pan because, in her words, "It's not every day your control-freak boyfriend spontaneously proposes without a PowerPoint presentation and at least three contingency plans."
"You're doing it again," she says now, nudging me with her shoulder. "That soft smile thing that makes me think you're plotting something."
"Just appreciating the view," I reply, enjoying the slight flush that colors her cheeks despite her confident exterior.
"The view of overly excited dogs peeing on historically significant landmarks?"
"The view of my future wife in a ridiculous hat, doing what she loves."
She rolls her eyes, but I can see the pleasure my words bring her. For all her outward confidence, Josie still sometimes seems surprised by the depth of my feelings for her, as if she can't quite believe someone like me could be so thoroughly captivated by someone like her.
"You know," she says as we begin our walk back toward the apartment, "I realized something this morning while I was getting ready."