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My tears fall, and I admit out loud for the first time, “I really do want this baby,” and he wraps his arms around my waist, holding me tightly as the first sob releases, all the pain and heartache over the past few months that was overwhelming me finally coming out, the pain I wanted to unleash a few weeks ago at mom’s grave with dad and then at Aiden’s birthday dinner, all coming out in big sobs that shake my body.

“Just let it all out baby, I’ve got you,” he promises as he holds me tight, and I do as I’m told.

My emotions fall out of me as the attack, Bethany, mom, the bakery, Trina, and the baby hit me at once, the strength to stay strong leaving my body, and I struggle to catch my breath all while the love of my life holds me close, repeatedly telling me that he’s got me…

Chapter 28

Jokester

Ibouncemyleftleg as I look around the common room, eyeing the brothers chatting away with a beer in hand, littered everywhere while clubwhores try to get their attention but fail.

That might be because it’s only three in the afternoon, meaning day clothes only. They prefer to walk around in skimpy clothes or even nude to catch a brother’s attention which most times works, but while it’s still early, jeans and T-shirts are a must.

Or it could be because there’s a certain matter to go over – my returning to the club.

I feel out of sorts here, or maybe it’s because Essy is currently at my apartment with Aiden and Cody, and I’m not with her.

“You know Cody won’t try to hit on her now that he’s single, right? If that is what you are worried about.” Acid says as he takes in my jitters, and I chuckle and pick my beer up.

I reply, “One, I’m the one who called him to stay with Essy and Aiden. I can’t have them alone because it’s only been two days since she finally had her breakdown, and two, while yes, the fucker loves her, he knows he blew his chance years ago. She doesn’t feel the same way, and his ex was crazy, so he had to end things with her.”

Acid hums and states, “Setting all his clothes on fire because he allowed Essy to use his phone when she was away so she can have some breathing space and then trashing his apartment all because he was caring for Aiden while Adam was in the hospital with his daughter was definitely extreme.”

I nod and mumble, “Yeah, she made the clubwhores look normal.”

He laughs, not denying my words, knowing they are true when I catch Candy’s eye, my old main fuck, and I shiver in disgust as she bites her bottom lip while rubbing her thighs together, trying to look hot when she really isn’t.

Don’t get me wrong, she’s pretty and all, but the girl has a wet spot on her crotch for fuck’s sake proving she’s fucked someone not long ago and instead of washing, she’s left it, most likely hoping to get pregnant but knowing the brothers, whoever she fucked most likely can’t have kids because no brother is stupid to go bare otherwise...

What the fuck was I thinking touching that?

Oh yeah, I lost years of fucking around being celibate to a girl I didn’t touch or even want for my president.

I shake my head as she tries to squish her tits together to entice me, and I look away from her. She knows I’m taken, the whole fucking club does, so she’s pushing her luck. If I return to the club grounds, Essy will accompany me, and I won’t make her uncomfortable.

“Don’t worry about Candy. Butcher will put everyone in their place in a moment. We all want you back on club grounds,” Acid says, noticing the clubwhore’s actions, and I sigh.

I know they want me back, fuck Bethany is currently living in a hostel with a prospect following her every day so I don’t kill her, an urge I don’t believe will ever disappear, but I just don’t know if I can feel comfortable here anymore.

Six months away from the club is a long time to get complacent with my new life.

“I can’t have that behavior around Essy, brother,” I admit.

He groans, “Fuck’s sake, surely she knows you’re hers by now to just overlook it? We want you home, I fucking need you home especially before the end of the month otherwise I have to wear a fucking bright yellow bikini for two days including on a club run.”

I look at him and smirk, “Good to know,” making him groan before I admit, “It’s more like Essy will hit any woman over the head with a metal tray and cause an all-out war with the clubwhores if they try and touch me.”

He pauses for a moment and thinks before he winces, nods, and opens his mouth to say something but pauses when Butcher shouts, “Brothers,” getting all of our attention while his is on me.

And here we go…

“Today we’re here to convince our brother, Jokester, to come home,” he says and looks around the room before locking eyes with me again and states, “While yes, he’s wearing his cut, he’s willing to partake in some club business, and he’s sitting in this room, but that isn’t enough, is it?”

“No!” the brothers shout in unison while the clubwhores eye me up like a piece of meat.

Fuck’s sake I can already picture my girl, heavily pregnant beating them up.

“I fucked up,” Butcher says, and we lock eyes. He continues, “I’ve done everything I can to convince you to come home, including kicking my own daughter out, and I know how hard it was for you not to kill her, and I am grateful for that. For your loyalty to me, to Bullet in keeping her alive but despite her behavior, she’s still my daughter and I chose you,” he sighs, “You have proven time and time again since you were just a boy how much this club means to you and instead of continuing to be the man you used to look up to, I lost your trust. Now, I’m asking you to allow me to win it back, not just for the bond we share as non-blood uncle and nephew but for your family, our family. Let us all prove we have your back and your family’s back.”

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