Page 47 of Falling Together

Erin squeezed her eyes shut as she waited for the inevitable “Mommy,” but it never came. She took a deep breath and blew it out then threw herself onto the small couch that took up a big portion of the extra room of their suite.

Blair flopped down beside her and laid her head against the back of the couch. “No wonder my parents were always tired when I was growing up. I don’t know how you do this by yourself most days.”

Erin sighed. She had gotten so used to having Blair around so much of the time she almost forgot she was doing this alone. “It’s not easy, but I also don’t have a choice.”

Blair turned her head and stared at Erin for a long time before she said anything. “For what it’s worth, I think you’re fucking amazing. Nolan’s the luckiest little boy in the entire world to have you as his mom.”

With just a few words, the urge to kiss Blair was back. Except, it wasn’t even an urge anymore. It was more of a need. Like if she didn’t kiss her soon, she might run out of oxygen. But she couldn’t. One taste of those lips was not worth the years of heartache that getting attached to someone can leave you with, especially when there is a risk of that heartache affecting and hurting this innocent little boy.

Erin reached out and grabbed Blair’s hand, because she had to touch her in some way. Blair had become her safety net, and that touch reminded her Blair was still there. She squeezed Blair’s hand as she intertwined their fingers, “Thank you for saying that. You don’t know how many times I question whether or not I’m doing a good enough job with him.”

Blair stared at their interlocked hands before moving her gaze onto Erin’s face again. “The fact that you could even question yourself is crazy to me. Anyone with eyes can see what a good mom you are. Hell, you probably don’t even need eyes to see that. You literally radiate love. It’s…” Blair took a long, deep breath and blew it out. “It’s beautiful.”

Being called beautiful by Blair was like being called a guiding light by the North Star. BecauseBlairwas the most beautiful woman in the world. And it wasn’t just skin deep. Everything about Blair was beautiful.

Even though she knew she should hold in these thoughts, Erin couldn’t. She had to let Blair know. “You’rebeautiful.”

A small smile parted Blair’s lips as she continued to stare into Erin’s eyes. “Do you know how hard you make itnotto kiss you?”

Blair slowly moved closer to her, and Erin’s breath caught in her throat, because she was pretty sure this was it. Blair was going to kiss her, and Erin had no power to stop her. Instead of bringing their lips together, though, Blair brought her face to Erin’s neck and took a deep breath, breathing Erin in. Even though she hadn’t touched her, there was something so sensual about it. Her hands might as well have been all over Erin, because that’s what it felt like. She placed the lightest kiss right on Erin’s pulse point and it sent a bolt of electricity into her body and straight to her core. ErinneededBlair. God, did she need her.

Blair must have realized this, because she continued to place kisses across Erin’s neck, each time getting closer and closer to her lips. If Erin moved her face the slightest bit, their lips could finally touch, but she couldn’t move. She was frozen in place by all the magnificent feelings pulsing through her body, stemming from just a few light kisses. Blair continued her kisses across Erin’s jaw until she finally placed one on her chin, barely a quiver away from her lips.

When Blair pulled away slightly, Erin was sure it was because the kiss she needed more than air was finally coming. Instead, Blair stared at her for a long time, both of their chests heaving, and then she whispered, “I’m so sorry,” before moving to rest her head on Erin’s shoulder.

Erin wanted to tell her she had nothing to be sorry for. She wanted to beg her to please finish what she had started. But she couldn’t find the words. She couldn’t find her voice at all.

When more time passed without Erin saying anything, Blair spoke again. “Is this okay? Can we stay like this for just a little while?”

Erin was able to find her voice to push out a barely audible, “Yes,” as she rested her head against Blair’s as well.

Chapter 17

Blair

Instead of waking up to the sun shining through their hotel window like she had the past two days, Blair awoke to the sound of thunder. It took her a moment to get her bearings, but once she did, she realized Nolan and Erin were lying in bed next to her—a sleeping arrangement that Nolan had insisted on again last night. Blair had kind of expected Erin to refuse after what had happened between them earlier that day, but she didn’t.

Blair pinched her eyes shut. She still couldn’t believe she let herself get so carried away yesterday. When Erin called her beautiful, she lost all control. Not having her lips on Erin in one way or another just didn’t seem like an option. Luckily, she somehow found the strength to stop herself before she made things completely awkward between them. When they awoke from their impromptu nap about an hour later, it was as if nothing had happened. It was a relief but also kind of strange. In fact, the rest of the night was so normal that it had Blair wondering if she had dreamed the whole thing. The tingling of her lips whenever she thought of Erin’s skin beneath them was enough to tell her she hadn’t.

Shit. She would give anything to taste that skin just one more time. Blair squeezed her eyes shut and bit her bottom lip. Shereallyshouldn’t be thinking about this when there was no way for her to get release.

Unless there is.Now that she had the idea in her head, Blair had to make it happen or she might literally burst. She slowly and carefully extracted herself from the bed and was extremely relieved when neither Erin nor Nolan woke up. She looked outside and noticed the rain coming down hard, but since she hadn’t heard any thunder since the boom that woke her up, she figured it couldn’t bethatdangerous to take a shower. Plus, it was worth the risk to not feel like she was going to explode.

She went into the bathroom and immediately started the shower. It was only a matter of time before Nolan and Erin woke up, so she didn’t have any time to waste. She stripped out of her clothes and hopped into the shower, only allowing herself a few seconds to bask in the warm water before she moved her hand between her legs. She closed her eyes and pictured Erin’s face as she said the words, “You’rebeautiful.” She remembered the feeling of Erin’s skin beneath her lips and the way her whole body had reacted to that littlest bit of contact.

She imagined it was Erin’s hand touching her instead of her own. She pretended it was Erin’s fingers that were making her wet, because honestly, it might as well have been. She was the real reason Blair was so turned on. When she brought a finger to her entrance, it took all her willpower not to scream out. She slapped one hand against the side of the shower to hold herself upright while her other hand continued its work.

All she saw in front of her was Erin. Erin’s eyes. Erin’s lips. Erin’s perfect body with those amazing curves. It didn’t take her any time at all to completely fall apart. She came all over her own fingers and slid down the shower when her legs completely gave out.

She wasn’t sure how long she sat there with the shower water pouring over her. It could’ve been seconds or it could’ve been hours. She was suspended in a place of absolute ecstasy. Well, that was, until a knock came on the door and a little voice shocked her back to reality.

“Bear! Are you okay? Bear! I have to peeeeee!”

Shit.Blair jumped out of the shower and quickly wrapped herself in a towel. When she opened the door, Nolan ran past her, pants already down at his ankles as he ran to the toilet. He immediately started to pee while Blair struggled to catch her breath.

Once he was done, he awkwardly pulled up his pants then smiled over at her. “You almost made me pee my pants.”

“I’m sorry, bud. I didn’t hear you out there at first.” Blair felt guilty even if it wasn’t actually a lie. She hadn’t heard him. The reasonwhyshe hadn’t heard Nolan might not have been her best decision, though.

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