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“Awe fuck, woman. Don’t cry. Why don’t you take the day off? Do some girly shit to make you feel better. I’ll get these flowers out of here.”

I shook my head. “No. I need the money. Bills and all of that.”

“I got you.” I went to argue when he put his hand up. “I’ve unofficially adopted you as my own. So now I take care of you. And since I’m claiming you as family, the club has your back as well. So go home and just relax.”

More tears spurted and Moose gently rubbed my back.

“Thank you so much, Moose. That means... more than you even know.”

He put his thumb under my chin and lifted my eyes to his.

“I love you, woman. You are so loved by all of us. So go home and call me later. Beckett will be there too.”

I turned to Beckett, who smiled at me. I held tightly to Moose before pulling back.

“Thank you. I love you too, Moose.”

Beckett opened the door and led me back down Main Street and to my building.

“Do you wanna come in? I don’t want to be alone.”

Beckett hesitated. “I don’t wanna step on any toes. Hawk is my brother and it would be wrong of me.”

“Wow. Uhm... that’s very... noble?”

We both laughed as he leaned on the railing of the stairs.

“I’m just trying to clean up my act. I don’t want to be a prospect forever. Let me chat with Hawk tonight and see where he stands. I think you’re pretty cool, Sav.”

I smiled at him as I moved up the steps.

“Well, holler if you need anything. I’m not going anywhere.”

Beckett nodded, then walked out front. I unlocked my door and moved inside. The flowers from earlier greeted me and I sighed.

What the fuck was I going to do?

Grabbing a glass of wine, I walked into my bedroom and changed into a pair of soft shorts and shirt.

I went back into the living room and sat on the couch, flipping the TV on to one of my favorite cooking shows.

I wish I could just escape to clear my mind, but deep down, I knew that wouldn’t help. I just needed to somehow get the courage to face Hawk.

My only concern was that once I saw him, I would crumble. Sighing, I sat back and let the mindless show occupy my new day off.

Chapter Twenty

Ithadbeenaweek. A fucking entire week since I had seen Savannah.My woman. I didn’t care if she had said it was over. There was no way I was going down without a fight.

I loved her with everything I had. All week I had sent her flowers with notes in hopes it would soften her up for when I got the courage to actually go to her place.

I was on my eighth beer, and it was only noon. According to Lily, I wasn’t allowed to leave the clubhouse. So going and professing my love for Sav wasn’t an option right now. And that made me even more fucking mad.

But I listened to her because she was getting me out of trouble. If I followed her directions, I could get the drug charges dropped and even get the attempted murder charges dropped to assault.

So I stayed in this place, drank my days away, and leeched off my brothers. It was a fucking shitty situation, and I hated I was in it.

My court date was today, and I knew I had to sober up a little. I grabbed a water bottle and headed up to my room. I peed in the stupid cup Lily gave me and sent her a picture. Daily fucking drug tests to prove I was clean.

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