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“Anything else?”

He shuffled his feet and crept into my bedroom.

“Uh... I just really wanna cuddle with you and hold you because I like you and shit.”

I couldn’t help but laugh at Hawk. He was this big tough guy yet was standing in my doorway like a little kid who had a nightmare.

Maybe these Devil Highwaymen were big softies after all. Lilah, Willow, and Bambi seemed to have their men wrapped around their fingers.

I pulled the blanket down and patted the empty spot next to me.

“Let’s go. You're kind of pathetic but I may enjoy seeing this vulnerable side of you, Wyatt.”

He smiled as he climbed into bed and wrapped himself around me. I cuddled into him, enjoying his warmth. Hawk kissed the top of my head and sighed.

“You make me fucking crazy, Sav. I care so much about you and what you think of me. It’s kind of scary.”

I turned to look up at him. “Then why did you hide your secrets from me?”

Hawk took my face in his hands and softly kissed me before pulling back.

“Because I'm not ready to relive that part of my life. It's long and complicated. It’s a time where I thought I had hit rock bottom and everything I worked for was gone in the blink of an eye.”

I gently touched his face, and he leaned his forehead on mine before continuing.

“I was in a position of power. On top of the fucking world. Then I was thrust into a situation and used my power to do something I thought was good, but other people thought differently. I spiraled out of control and those actions brought me to The Devil’s Highwaymen. I tried to fight Tank at the bar.”

I burst out laughing. “Tank? That man is fucking huge!”

Hawk laughed, too. “I know! I know, but I was so fucking lost, Sav. It didn’t even matter to me. I had no regard for personal safety at that point. I think part of me just wanted something bad to happen to end it all. I wasn’t suicidal per se, but I didn’t care if I died. I was a fucking wreck.”

I softly rubbed his arm. “Whatever happened really hurt you, huh?”

Hawk nodded. “Yeah. It really fucking did. And I want to tell you, I really do. But I’m scared that if I do, I’m gonna go back down that road. I’ve pushed all those memories out of my head.”

“Who helped you get back on the road?”

He smiled. “Moose. He took me under his wing that night and made sure I stopped with the drinking and pills. He told me he saw himself in me. So I’m sorry I haven’t told you, but just know I want to. I just need time to prepare myself to relive that time.”

I kissed his cheek and grinned. “I appreciate you telling me that. How can I prove I’m worth telling the secret too?”

Hawk shook his head. “You already did by just being you. I’ve never told anybody even as much as I just told you. I just... I need time, Savannah.”

I nodded. “Alright. I can agree with that.”

“Perfect. Now, there’s a party tomorrow night at the clubhouse for the Fourth and I wanna bring you. Are you up for that?”

“Uh... sure. I’ve never been to one but I would like to go.”

Hawk smiled and kissed me. “Fucking perfect, baby. You’ll love it. All the Old Ladies will be there so you won’t be alone.”

“That sounds really nice. Now we need to get some sleep. You’re gonna have a nasty hangover in the morning. Stop drinking so much.”

He laughed and pulled me into him. “I know, pretty girl.”

We both closed our eyes and fell asleep in each other's arms.

Chapter Fourteen

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