Page 140 of Shadow

I rolled my eyes. “No thanks.”

“You could fuck someone else,” he said softly, his tone serious, as he dropped his hands from my shoulders. “Lucy, maybe.”

I snapped my attention to him. “I am not fucking someone else. I don’t goddamn cheat on my girl.”

“You’re thinking about leaving her.” He cocked his head to the right and nodded. “You think it’ll be better.”

I looked down at my feet. “I’m embarrassed, man. I can’t compete with these guys. There’s no fucking way.” I breathed out. “Do you fuck other girls? Like, recently.”

“Mm, not recently,” he said. “It’s been a few weeks, but yes.”

“Even though you love her?”

He nodded. “They don’t mean shit to me. It’s more of a duty working for Everett and all that. Sometimes I do it and pretend they’re her. It helps.”

“I can’t do that. I love her. I want her to be my first. My last. My only.”

“Then do it. Stop waiting. You’re scared. You’re embarrassed. I get it. But you have to move past that shit. Take her if you want her. I have an idea. We can practice.”

“I’m not letting you put that carrot in my ass,” I said wearily.

He chuckled. “I’m not going to jam my carrot in your ass. I have another idea. Come on. Let’s get out there. You can’t stay in here all night.”

“How the fuck am I supposed to go out there and face them, face her, after that shit?”

“You hold your fucking head high and just do it.” He opened the door. “Come on.”

As much as I wanted to just climb through the fucking bathroom window and disappear into the night, I followed him back to the living room.

Sirena was cuddled up on Sin’s lap when we entered the room. She smiled sweetly at me before untangling herself from him and coming to me.

“Hey, cupcake,” I murmured. “I’m sorry about that. I’m…” I looked around the room to see the guys watching me.

God, how fucking embarrassing. What they had to be thinking. Probably ready to boot my ass out after only just joining.

She didn’t let me finish. She pushed me down onto the couch, removed her hoodie and sweatpants, and straddled my lap. I stared up at her, my heart beating hard.

Her lips met mine in a soft kiss. I could taste alcohol on them. She’d drunk something. I knew she was high because her eyes were so glassy.

She unbuttoned my pants again. She didn’t even try to take them off. Ashes moved forward, tugging them down my legs for me, and gave me a wink.

I didn’t like Church and Sin hurt her earlier. The blood was still visible on the bandage. I was careful to avoid squeezing her too hard on her hip as she ground her hot pussy against my bare cock.

Breathe. Easy. Focus. Give this to her. She wants it. You can do this. You have to do this. Don’t fucking embarrass yourself again.

I had to admit, it felt good to have her on me like that.

I didn’t much care for having an audience, but that was probably because I didn’t want to blow it for a second time in front of them and never live it down.

She continued to grind against me. Her lips met mine again, and I deepened the kiss. She moaned softly as she moved faster.

I vowed I wasn’t going to come at all this time. This was all about her.

I jutted my hips upward to meet her grind. Within moments, she was unraveling for me, her body trembling and her pussy soaking my groin from her orgasm.

I slowed her to a stop, and she stared into my eyes, her brows crinkled.

“Just you,” I murmured to her.

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