Page 157 of Rhet

I did the right thing. I did the right thing. Then why do my actions feel so wrong.

As the doors close behind me, I lean back and watch the numbers go down. No one will notice the change right away. I will tell Rhet in my own time.

Everyone is going to benefit from the decision I made.

“I made the right decision for me and my family.” I sigh as the doors of the elevator open.

When he wins the bid, I will tell Rhet everything.

* * *

I did the right thing.I did the right thing. I. Did. The. Right. Thing. Then why do I feel so guilty. Throwing myself onto my bed. I think of the bid that I just made. A lot of people are about to be upset with me. However, I couldn’t destroy a man I love. I roll over and scream into my pillow. The man I love also took away my brothers’ legs and I took away the only chance of him being in the Bio-N program.

I relax my body, roll to the side and stare at the white wall. Its’s going to be alright. I have it all figured out. Once Rhet realizes he won, I’ll tell him what’s happened. He may be upset. But, we will take Mr. C down together. Also knowing Rhet, he will buy into the Bio-N program for Dante. Everything is going to be all right.

I groan and roll over again, to look at the time. Ten thirty pm. Rhet will here soon. I need a minute to myself to breathe.

Sitting up I searched for my phone. Two seconds later Rhet’s phone is ringing.

“Hey beautiful,” he says.

“Um hey I’m not feeling my best. I just need some time to myself tonight,” I grip my sheets waiting for him to respond.

“You ok? Want me call a doctor?” he says his voice is full of concern.

I bite my lips “No, babe I’m fine?”

I hear no response. I check my phone to make sure it was ok.

“Rhet?”

“Yeah, if you are having your girl time. I can send for your tampons or whatever.”

I giggle shaking my head “No, babe but thank you for that.”

“Well great. Hey, by the way we’re going to the Caribbean tomorrow.”

My eyes nearly pop out of my head “We as in you and I.”

He chuckles “Yeah Zee you and I.”

“Oh my God. For how long? What should I pack?” I hop off the bed opening my closet looking for clothes to wear.

I can hear him chuckle, “Pack for two days. I’m going to check out a house.”

“Oh, a house. Is it in Kingston? I love Jamaica,” I think of the islands feeling sad I didn’t get my hair done in braids.

“More like Speyside, Tobago.”

I stop “Where?”

“We are going to Trinidad and Tobago for two days. Then back home,” He states.

“That’s where that Black Panther guy comes from right? Oh, I’m excited.” I open my closet wider.

“I never saw Black Panther” I hear Rhet mumble over the phone.

I stop looking at my clothes “You never what?”

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