Page 46 of Dominate Me

Earlier, it’d dawned on me how much headspace this strange relationship was taking up in my mind. It was distracting me from my job and friendships I’d had almost my entire life. I couldn’t risk damaging those, not at the expense of another man. Not again.

“I will be your sub in the bedroom, as we originally agreed to if you want to continue,” I said quietly. My heart fluttered with the consequences of my words. I was risking putting a nail in the coffin of my first Dom-sub relationship. “But outside of that, I can’t give you more. You’ve made it clear you don’t want it, and as I try to navigate this road I put myself on, I can’t have those lines crossing.”

“And if I’m willing to try to give you that? To take care of you of in that way as your Dom?”

“I can’t risk you changing your mind.”

It would hurt too much. But more than the thought of him not changing his mind, I wanted his assurances he wouldn’t. That he did want something more with me. At the end of the day, I wasn’t just a sub...I was still a girl who wanted a boy to love her.

“I see.” His deep voice carried the hint of regret, of disappointment. Like he knew exactly what I was asking for and was certain he wasn’t that man.

I wanted to weep. I’d just done the very thing I hadn’t wanted to do.

When he spoke again, his voice changed, instantly sparking that need inside of me. It was cold, but powerful, and his confidence and control sparked in the space between us.

“Very well, then. You’ll be at my house tomorrow as we previously discussed. I’ll send you instructions tomorrow afternoon, and I expect you to prepare yourself accordingly.”

Despite wanting to cry over what I’d just potentially lost, my body went hot with anticipation.

“Good night, Haley.”

I glanced at him, saw something warring in his deep blue eyes, and nodded once. “Good night, Jensen.”

His lip curled at the mention of his name, as if he wanted to forbid me to use it.

But we weren’t playing and I’d made myself clear.

I slid out of his car and hurried up the small walkway to my house.

Once I locked the front door behind me, I heard the quiet purr of his car pull out of the driveway. I stood by the doorway, peering through the small window beside the door until his taillights disappeared. Then I went to bed and fell asleep with my clothes still on and a heavy knot curling inside my stomach.

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