Page 101 of Black Heart

Any second now, she was going to wake up. She’d share this dream with Tristan when he asked her what was wrong. When she told him, he’d tease her and distract her with a kiss until this dream was nothing more than a distant memory and all she could think about was the way that he felt when he moved against her.

All her hopes that this was a dream vanished when a man wearing a bloodied hospital gown stumbled through the brick wall of the hospital and headed her way. Numbly, Marty watched as Finn and Connall suddenly appeared in front of him. Seconds later, the trio was engulfed in a beautiful white light that spread all around them. It didn’t quite reach her, which was probably the reason why she felt dread instead of any hope when she saw the ambulance transporting Tristan pull into the long driveway.

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“Fuck!We need to get his fever down.”

“Did your mother have any more ice in the freezer?” Tom asked, trying to stay calm when Shayne could tell that the man was struggling to hold it together.

It was a familiar scene, one that he’d watched play out hundreds of times during his too-long, fucked-up existence. He’d even experienced this scenario, twice. The first time, when Tadgh died in his arms and the second time, when his own mate, Aileen, had died the one and only time he’d allowed himself to be born and taken a stab at breaking the curse.

He hadn’t been able to protect her, which was the reason why he’d never tried again. She was better off without him and this bloody curse that tainted everything that it touched.

The last time he saw her, she’d been covered in blood, his and hers, and cursing him out for being a bastard. He’d taken it, held her tightly in his arms as he swore that he would never bother her again, and unlike Tadgh, he’d kept his word.

Keeping his word hadn’t been difficult for him and probably for a very simple reason. While Tadgh was truly in love with his soulmate, Shayne was not. In fact, not strangling the woman with his bare hands had taken every ounce of energy that he’d had every time he’d seen her during that one lifetime when he’d foolishly tried to set them free.

She didn’t mean anything other than a means to an end. He didn’t hate her, but he couldn’t honestly say that he cared about her. He’d never met her when he’d been alive, truly alive before this curse trapped them and during that one and only attempt, he hadn’t developed any feelings beyond annoyance for her. She wasn’t his responsibility and he didn’t owe her a damn thing, which was the reason that he’d been able to turn his back on her. Tadgh, on the other hand…

Tadgh was his brother, his blood, and his responsibility. He would never be able to turn his back on him, no matter how much his brother pissed him off. He was also the best person that Shayne had ever known.

Christ, he could still remember those carefree smiles that made it so damn difficult to stay angry at the boy. He’d been such a kind boy and an even kinder man. Tadgh would have made such a wonderful father, and if it hadn’t been for him, he would have had that chance.

He’d fucked up everything with one simple mistake, a stupid mistake and one that he’d spend eternity wishing like hell that he could fix, but he couldn’t. There was no going back, no fixing the mistake that had cost them everything, and no forgiving himself. Tadgh didn’t seem to have that problem.

Nothing had ever hurt like the moment when he’d watched Tadgh die for the first time and then watched as the man appeared in his new cursed form as he was forced to watch his wife and unborn child die. God, the anguish and pain he’d seen in his brother’s eyes as he knelt by Macha’s side, still tore at him when he allowed himself to remember that moment. But it had nothing on the moment that followed once Macha and the baby’s souls were taken away.

As Shayne lay on the ground, barely able to breathe, never mind move from the injuries that he’d suffered, he’d been forced to watch as his brother’s world had been destroyed and his heart was shattered. When Tadgh had finally been able to look away from the body of his young wife and looked at him, he saw pain, so much goddamn pain, but he also saw forgiveness in his brother’s eyes.

Tadgh had stayed with them all as they’d been forced to lie there, feeling helpless as the reminders of their failure had lay only a few feet away. By the third day, they hadn’t been able to take the reminder of their failure any longer. They’d dragged their bodies, broken and bloodied over to where Tadgh and Macha’s bodies lay. For the rest of the day and night, they’d slowly dug a hole and buried the bodies while Tadgh stood over them.

He never said a word while they’d worked, not even when they’d managed to drag Macha’s body into the hole and started to push dirt into the hole to cover her. He simply stood there, standing guard over them while they did what had to be done. Shayne wasn’t sure how he’d handled it. He knew that he wouldn’t have been able to cope with watching his own funeral. The two times that he’d died, he hadn’t stuck around to watch, but Tadgh always watched.

They’d told him that he wouldn’t be able to talk to or touch Marty once he died and that much was true. If she was still alive after he died, he’d be pulled out right away, but the moment that her time was up, he would start to feel the pull to return to her and each and every time he gave in without hesitation. Tadgh always stood by Macha’s side as she drew her last breath. Then, he would stay with her body until she was buried.

Tadgh was a much better man than he was, but he’d always known that. While Tadgh couldn’t do enough to make things right for his soulmate, Shayne couldn’t give a fuck about his. When he felt the pull of her rebirth, he ignored it. He’d ignored the pull twenty-five years ago and he fully planned on ignoring the pull of her death whenever that happened just as he always had.

She lived close by, but not close enough that he’d ever had to see her while he was protecting Tristan, which was a blessing. He didn’t want to see her, didn’t want to know what she looked like, what kind of life she had, if she was married, had children, or was living a miserable, pain-filled existence. She wasn’t his problem, Tadgh was.

His brother’s time was almost at an end and he needed to be there for him. No matter how painful his death would be, realizing that he was once again separated from Macha and their child was always excruciating for Tadgh. It would be even more painful this time because this would be the last time he would ever see her again.

Shayne saw it in Tristan’s eyes last night as the situation was explained to him. It hadn’t surprised him how fast Tristan came to realize what the plan meant and accepted it. He’d always been like that, putting the needs and safety of his loved ones first. Every time Macha lost Tadgh, it became increasingly harder to deal with and this time would be no different.

He’d hoped that the plan would have saved Marty and the baby from the curse, but none of them had the balls to go through with it and now, they were going to suffer. He’d give her a week, four at the most, before her heart gave out and she followed after Tristan.

If he thought it would make a difference, Shayne would reach down and pull Tadgh’s soul out now, but it wouldn’t change anything. The curse was already activated and now, it was time to go through the motions. Besides, Marty would want to say goodbye to him. It would be painful to watch, but they would deal with it and the aftermath.

Hell, he wasn’t looking forward to this. He didn’t want to watch as Marty’s heart broke. He didn’t want to watch as his brother once again lost the only happiness that he’d ever known in this lifetime and he sure as hell didn’t want to see the anguish in his brother’s eyes when Marty took her last breath.

But, he would.

He would do whatever his brother needed. He owed him that much, at least.

“Shit! Dad, he’s seizing!” Denny said, trying not to panic as he worked alongside his father to save Tristan’s life.

Shayne was thankful that this family came into Tristan’s life. They’d taken him in, accepted him and loved him and Shayne had no doubt that if they had learned of Tristan’s curse that they would have been there for him as well. They’d made life for Tristan tolerable and Shayne would make sure that when their time came that he was there to help them to the other side. It was the least that he could do for them.

“Park the fucking truck!” Tom yelled at the EMT behind the wheel, losing his cool for the first time since Shayne had come into the picture.

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