Page 76 of Wild Omega

No one cared about how Wayden felt… no one. It felt like their childhood all over again.

“You know, I heard there are nice attractions on the southern part of the planet. Do you think we can stop at some of the places for a few minutes?” Blaine said. Wayden turned to stare at the omega. Blaine shyly looked away, causing Wayden’s heart to beat fast. Fuck he loved it when Blaine looked all bashful. It looked good on him. “I mean we don’t have to. I just thought…”

“We’ll stop and go sightseeing. My brother can wait. It’s not like he’s dying or anything,” Wayden said. Blaine gave him a strange look. “What?”

“You don’t like him?” he asked softly.

“It’s not like that. We just have a complicated relationship. He’s… you’ll see when you meet him,” Wayden said. He didn’t like badmouthing aggressive alphas, but fuck, his brother was a handful.

“I’m sure he’s fine. You’re a little weird too,” Blaine said.

“What? What did I do?”

“You don’t know?” Blaine’s laughter filled the shuttle sending shivers down Wayden’s spine. Wayden couldn’t help but laugh too. “Are you sure you’re not an aggressive alpha? Sometimes I can’t tell.”

“When have I ever behaved like an aggressive alpha?”

“Do you want me to remind you?” Blaine rubbed the side of his neck, reminding Wayden what he’d done. Wayden winced.

“That was…” Wayden said and then looked away. He stared at the airways, guilt burning his insides. “Sorry about that. It’s… I shouldn’t have done that.”

“You’ve already apologised, Wayden. I forgave you. We moved on from there,” Blaine said. "I didn’t bring it up to make you feel bad. I was just…”

“I know. It’s just not one of my proudest moments,” Wayden said with a sigh. If he could turn back time, he would. He didn’t even know what had gotten into him. He’d just… followed his instincts. Was that how his brother felt?

“Mine neither,” Blaine said softly. He blinked rapidly and then smiled. Wayden wanted to reach out and touch him. “I’ll look up interesting sights.”

“I know of a place. It’s a day and a few hours from here. We can start there,” Wayden said. Blaine nodded, a wistful look in his eyes.

“I’m jealous of you,” Blaine said. “You’ve travelled around the planet. You’ve seen a lot of things.”

“Yes, I have. My work has taken me to many places. I’ve been to the original sites where our packs used to live and have done excavation work,” Wayden said. “That was exciting. It was like uncovering lost treasure.”

“Did you find any?”

“No,” Wayden said with a laugh. “There were a few packs who showed signs that they were more affluent than others though.”

“Tell me more.” Blaine turned in his seat to face him. The excitement in the omega’s face did things to Wayden. And without even thinking about it, Wayden found himself telling Blaine about his research and the places he’d been, which made Wayden long to take the omega with him on his next fieldwork trip. Would Blaine agree if he asked him? Would he go with him?

Wayden glanced at Blaine. They hadn’t spoken about what was happening between them. Wayden had wanted to talk about it, but he got scared every time. The very thought of his heart breaking all over again scared him. Wayden wanted to trust Blaine. He wanted to trust what they had. Something so beautiful couldn’t be bad, Escala had said that. Ambrose came to mind and Wayden knew there was no guarantee. Ambrose had been the sweetest omega he’d ever met. Wayden had never thought that Ambrose would betray him.

Fuck.

Wayden gripped the controllers tight and tried not to think of the worst. Blaine was different. He wasn’t like Ambrose. He wouldn’t… No. Wayden had to trust his feelings. He wasn’t going to allow his past to control his future. He wanted Blaine. That meant he had to be brave. He had to put his heart on the line in order to love again.

“Is something wrong?” Blaine asked. “You stopped talking.”

“Did I?” Wayden asked with a tiny laugh. “I was just thinking.”

“About what?” Blaine innocently stared at him.

“How I feel about you,” Wayden said. Blaine visibly jerked. He turned to face the front. Wayden reached for his hand. “This is just about how I feel, Blaine. You don’t have to say anything or feel anything. I’m just… I want to tell you how I feel.”

“I…” Blaine started.

“No, just listen. I need to do this while I’m still brave or I’ll never do it,” Wayden said. “I love you, Blaine. I fell in love with you. I don’t know how it happened. One minute I couldn’t standyou and the next I wanted to be close to you. I want to see where this thing between us will go. I know it’s too soon and we haven’t talked about what’s happening between us. We didn’t exactly start the way a normal couple would. But I think things are good between us… perfect, actually. I love being with you. I know you might not feel the same. I just… wanted you to know.” Wayden glanced at Blaine, waiting for Blaine to say something. Even though he’d told Blaine he didn’t have to say anything, Wayden kind of wanted to hear how Blaine felt about him.

Don’t push, Wayden told himself. He let go of Blaine’s hand and turned to look at the airway. They drifted in silence. When it was time for lunch, Wayden set the shuttle into auto-drift, and they went to prepare lunch. He watched Blaine silently move around the cooking station, preparing their food. He looked shocked out of his mind. Maybe Wayden shouldn’t have told him yet. Maybe it was too soon. Fuck. Wayden didn’t know. Blaine was so complicated. Wayden couldn’t figure him out. And that’s what scared Wayden the most.

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