Page 13 of Silver Fox's Secret Baby

"God, I've missed you so badly. I thought it was a dream when you showed up at Mountain View. I couldn't believe my luck." His hands fumbled with my shirt as he started backing me down the hallway toward his room.

"Wait, Ethan…" I protested weakly.

He didn't listen, nor did he stop. Instead, he began to undress me, his lips trailing fire on my neck and down to my collarbone. I couldn't help moaning in pleasure as he placed a fiery kiss between my breasts. I was losing this battle I was so desperateto win. It felt so right to be with him again. All my inhibitions melted away as he peeled my shirt off and dropped it. I wanted him—needed him.

The room was dark, and Ethan didn’t bother turning on the lights. We groped our way to the bed, tearing each other’s clothing off as if it were the first time we’d ever had sex. But his hands knew my body like the curves on a backroad on the way home. He kneaded my bare breasts, pinching and twisting a nipple until we toppled onto the comforter and his weight crushed me into the mattress.

“God, I don’t have a condom,” I breathed, clawing at his sides as he wriggled between my thighs.

“I’m clean,” he panted, guiding himself to my entrance. “Do you trust me?”

I did. I always had and still do. With a whimper, I closed my eyes and gave myself over to him. His lips closed around mine again, and his right hand gripped me behind the knee, lifting my leg. And then he slid into me, painfully, inch-by-inch, until I was gasping and panting for more.

“This is how it should’ve been five years ago,” he growled out. “I’m so sorry I let you go, that I didn’t do more to chase you.”

I couldn’t reply. Ethan began to move in and out lazily, setting a slow but steady pace. It was torture and ecstasy at the same time as he filled me completely, creating a delicious friction that made my toes curled.

“I love you, Lily,” he gasped as he suckled my neck. “I never stopped loving you.”

My nails dug into his skin as I arched my back, pressing him deeper inside me. It was like we never parted, the familiarity of it, the intimacy of it. He knew exactly how to pleasure me. He remembered how to tease me and push me toward the edge. Every deep thrust hit my cervix at the right angle, sucking the air from me and leaving me whining for more. And when hepressed a thumb against my swollen nub, I knew it was going to be intense.

“Oh, shit, Ethan,” I moaned as I rocked my pelvis against his.

“Come for me, baby.” His thrusts sped up, his breathing ragged. “I want to feel it.”

The orgasm hit me like a wave, crashing over me with such force that I cried out, my back arched off the bed. Wave after powerful wave of convulsions shook me. My hands clung to him, drawing blood, and he only thrust harder. He hadn’t lost a bit of stamina since the last time we were together, and I was already feeling almost spent.

“Wow,” I hissed, feeling my body grow heavy and relaxed. The orgasm began to subside, and Ethan slowed, but didn’t stop.

“I want you to feel amazing because I want you to remember what we used to be. I want us back, Lily.” He cupped my cheek and brushed a thumb over my cheekbone. I looked up into his eyes as he slowly drove into me. His pubic bone brushed over my already sensitive clit and continued to push me toward a second climax. Locking eyes with him only intensified that.

“Ethan, I—God,” I moaned, unable to form a coherent sentence. He was right, I should never have left him. It was the biggest mistake of my life. What could our lives have been like if I had just trusted him?

His eyes darkened with need, and it spurred me onward. Faster and faster he moved, until I couldn’t think straight. His muscles tensed under my hands, and then I came with a loud moan. My body had never been so on fire for this man, and it pushed away the shame and guilt. He was the one for me. He always had been. I’d been so foolish.

“Shit,” he hissed just as my climax was waning. He pulled out, gripping his dick, and blew his load onto my stomach. Strings of hot, sticky cum puddled on my skin, and I whimpered from the lack of him inside me.

Ethan pulled away, reaching for the nightstand. When the bed jostled and he returned, I felt his hand wiping across my stomach. "Sorry about that…" He worked until I was clean, and I felt sleep tugging at my eyelids.

"It's okay. Christ, that was amazing." I had no more than caught my breath when the guilty feeling started to sink back in. I never imagined reconnecting with Ethan would feel so amazing physically and emotionally, and I had this cloud over my conscience now.

"You are amazing. You always have been," he whispered, and I felt his hand cup my cheek again. He kissed me tenderly, but the chime of a bell broke the silence. "Crap… God, I'm sorry. I have to go help Mom again. Don’t go anywhere. I will be right back." He lingered for a few seconds with his tongue tracing my lips, but I had to let him go.

He vanished into the darkness, and I heard his belt buckle, then saw the light as he opened the door and then closed it. I couldn't stay, though. If I did, he would convince me to stay all night, and Noah needed me. Besides the fact that the guilt was eating me alive. After an interaction like that, I couldn't blurt out such a harsh truth and ruin things for him. I had to pick a time and place that seemed right and hope he wasn't so angry that he hated me forever.

This had gotten way out of hand faster than I thought it would.

10

ETHAN

Ireluctantly pulled away from Lily and left her sprawled on my bed. I grabbed my pants and shirt and yanked them on hastily as I headed for the door and slipped out. I knew when Mom moved in here that it would be a lot of work, and most nights, it didn't bother me at all, but those nights, I didn't have anyone over. Tonight was the first time since the switch happened and Dad went to the home where I felt emotionally burdened by Mom's presence here.

I walked up the hall barefoot, fixing my shirt so I looked presentable as I headed toward her room. Having my mother live with me hadn’t been any issue at all before now. I knew she needed me, and I'd decided to make that sacrifice. She and Dad took care of me all the way through medical school and for a few months after residency when I was looking for my full-time position at St. Anne’s. Now it was my turn. I just wished it wouldn't affect my time with Lily.

"Hey, Mom," I said when I walked into her room. She was sitting up after I'd already helped her lie down for the night.

"Oh, Ethan, I'm so clumsy. I dropped my medication and I can't find it. Can you please help me?" She looked down at the carpet beneath her feet and frowned, and I sighed.

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