Page 6 of Got to be You

“Why not?” Anna is in her wardrobe already, picking out her outfit for tonight, not worrying about my doubts at all. “You know him. Don’t you remember, you met him on that first night. I thought you got on.”

“Yeah, we did,” I reply quietly. “Maybe a little too well. Don’t you remember me telling you? We talked all night and kissed and then he asked me for my number.” I suck in a deep breath. “But I said no.”

“I know, you rejected him like a crazy person. Even though the pair of you could have had the time of your life together. If the chemistry was really as you described, then you should have jumped on him.”

“I told you why I can’t, though.” My lips turn down into a frown. “Because I’m not here for long.”

“I know, I know.” She rolls her eyes. “Because you have to go back, but why not have some fun? Why not just enjoy yourself while you’re here? Make the best of your time while you’re here.”

“But what if I get attached?” I moan. “That’s what I’m worried about. Getting my heart broken.”

Her face turns to thunder, and I can see that something unrelated to me is crossing her mind. “Trust me, guys are such assholes that you don’t stand a chance of falling in love with him. You might as well get some good sex out of him because then, he’ll end up putting you off completely.”

I toss my head back and laugh, knowing that she might well be right about that. “Yeah, maybe.”

“Anyway, it doesn’t matter. We decided to go and see whoever it is, didn’t we? So, we should go and watch him play. See how good he is. Support him and get tipsy. We both need it, don’t we?”

I can already see that I don’t have a choice, so I pull my sorry ass over to the shower and wake myself up under the hot jets ofwater. I also need this moment to calm myself down because I don’t want to be all messy when I see Jax for the first time afterthatnight. I need to be cool.

“He probably won’t even remember you,” I tell myself as I step out of the shower. “It was just one night and he’s a gorgeous guy. I’m sure he has a different woman every single night.”

I don’t like the idea of him with another woman, and I certainly don’t want to see it tonight, but if I’m going tohaveto witness that, then I want to look my best, don’t I? I really have no choice in the matter.

“What do I wear?” I call out to Anna as soon as I get back into the room. “I want to look hot.”

“Oh, then I want to see you in that red dress I’ve been eyeing up in your wardrobe,” she replies instantly. “I bet you look hot as hell in that. Jax will regret letting you walk away.”

I love how she knows what I’m talking about without my even needing to express myself. That’s why I think we’re going to be friends for life. Even when I leave here, I’ll keep in touch.

“Okay, I hope you’re right because I want to blow him away tonight. I can’t help myself.”

“I get it,” she agrees with a laugh. “And I need to do the same thing as well.”

She doesn’t say that it’s because of Adam, but we both know it’s the case. She wants to show him that he lost out on her, and I’m more than willing to help her do that. We can go in together and show these guys that we’re awesome… even if that message turns out to be more for us than them. Who cares?

“Wow.” But I’m not the one who’s blown away. Mostly because I don’t think he knows that I’m here yet, but what I’ve just witnessed is mind-blowing. He’s something else, really talented, an incredible musician and singer as well. He’s definitely going places with his songs. “He’s good.”

Thank God I didn’t come here planning to get over Jax because there is no way that’s happened. If anything, I’m even more attracted to him. All I want to do is run up on the stage and claim him before anyone else can because I feel like a part of him belongs to me and no one else. Even though he doesn’t.

“My God, he’s more than good,” Anna agrees. “He’s incredible. I’ve never seen anything like this. And to think, he’s my friend. I’ve known this guy for years. How the hell did I not know?”

She grabs my hand and squeezes it hard, excitedly. She starts dancing, and I join in, but my main focus is on that sexy rock god on stage and the way he’s making the crowd feel. They all love him. I really do feel like he could go far with this. He’s going to become someone impressive.

I want him.The realization hits me hard. It’s like a thump in the face, like I can’t believe that I didn’t know it before.I like him. There’s a reason I can’t stop thinking about him…

“Are you still set on your decision not to have fun with him?” Anna asks while nodding toward the stage. “After seeing him like that? Because he’s so gorgeous that I might want to seduce him.”

I giggle along with her, knowing that she’s joking. Really, she’s been looking for Adam all night long but he doesn’t seem to behere. He isn’t supporting his best friend, his roommate, even though everyone else is. Maybe he'd been to all his other shows and Anna just got lucky… or unlucky, I don’t know.

“I don’t know how I feel about him right now,” I lie since my body is in flames for that man right now. I might as well be screaming out with need because I want him so badly. “But I think I might hang around after the show, talk to him a bit, see where things might be between us.”

“Good answer!” Anna pats me on the shoulder. “You two deserve to have some fun.”

We dance until the end of the show before I wave goodbye to my friend as she climbs into the nearest cab to go back home. I have to admit that I feel very vulnerable and exposed, being here alone. I don’t make a habit of hanging out in clubs by myself, waiting for guys to come to me, but this isn’t a normal situation.

Yes, I’m going against everything I'd decided before. I know I’m putting myself in a dangerous situation, but I remember how good it felt to be with Jax that night, and after seeing him a little more now and learning that other side to him onstage, I can’t help myself from wanting more.

I guess I’m weak when it comes to Jax. I have no willpower. Probably the reason I should’ve stayed at home. But I’m here now, I’m fluttering all over, needing him to emerge from backstage already so I can talk to him. My God, the magnets are strong, the pull is hard and powerful. I can’t handle the anticipation much longer. I need Jax here and I need him now.

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