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“You took my innocent little sister from me and tried to take my girl from me and for that, I sentence you to death.” Her mouth parts but I don’t wait for a response. I shift to stand at her side and grip her rib cage in my bare hands and rip it open. The sound that comes from her is almost orgasm inducing, she has mere seconds before she dies so I don’t fuck around. I reach inside her and clasp her heart in my hand, then rip that fucker out. A small gasp escapes her, I keep my eyes on hers and it takes a second before she flatlines. The artery in my hand is warm and pulses for a moment before that too stills. I turn to Nexus who is staring at me with wide eyes and tears streaking down his cheeks. I toss the heart onto his lap, his scream is muffled as he tries to shake it off his lap by bouncing on his chair.

“When you least expect it is when I’ll come for you. You’ll learn to live as your sister did for months while I hunted her. I’ll make sure your fear becomes your best friend. I won’t end your pathetic life until you’re so filled with terror that your own shadow will have you pissing yourself as vengeance for what you did to Ellie. Unlike you, I would never have used my sister to lure a monster out but don’t worry, this monster will always protect your sister from motherfuckers like you. I may not be able to have her, but I’ll always watch over her from a distance and keep her safe.”

I stalk out of the room and head upstairs to the main floor. I come to a sudden stop when I spot Omen, Vat, Pope, Carnage and Halo all sitting around upstairs while Damon and the others are packing shipments. I run my gaze over each of my brothers. They’re all looking at me and judging from the taut expressions on their faces at the sight of the blood coating me they know what happened in that room. I don’t regret what I did but I do feel some type of guilt for their loss. They may have hated her but she was still their sister. I focus on Omen and hate the sight of devastation on his face. She wasn’t just his sister, she was his twin and that shit will be tearing him up inside.

“How badly did she suffer?” Carnage asks in a flat tone.

“Not nearly enough,” I answer.

“Is she alive?” Halo queries.

I shake my head. “As a favor to you all, I granted her mercy even though she never afforded Ellie or any of us the same courtesy.” When they stand to head downstairs, I block the door. “I said I granted her mercy, I never said it wasn’t messy. Allow me to get her… taken care of before you all see her. Don’t allow my vengeance to be the last memory you have of your sister.” They share a look amongst themselves before Omen pushes in front of them to stand before me. I can see the anger in his eyes and I’ll weather it, I deserve it. I just took his twin from him and he has every right to hate me for what I did.

“She came into this world with me and regardless of what she did, I won’t let her stay down there alone without me. She was a bitch and hated everyone, but her and I are the same. I’ll be the one dealing with my twin.” I nod and step aside. He pulls the door open but doesn’t cross the threshold, I wait for him to say whatever it is he needs to. “I don’t hate you, Butch. I could never but right now…”

“I get it,” I say, finishing his sentence for him. “I’ll stay in town for a while. I have meetings with the arms dealers and investors for the properties. I’ll deal with all of that while you all… mourn.”

Tatum

Being stabbed isn’t something I thought I would ever have to deal with in my life. Getting my heartbroken was something else I never thought I would have to encounter either, but here I am. Want to know the worst part?

The broken heart hurt more than nearly dying.

When I woke up in the hospital and he wasn’t there, I knew. Vivian, Nova and their guys were there buthewasn’t. I tried to play off how hurt I was and told the girls I was fine and it was just a bit of fun with an expiration date, but they weren’t buying it. They were horrified when I told them what happened. They were more shocked that I called CJ Vatel and set up a meeting, according to Nova that is bad bitch energy right there. Having the girls here kept my mind off Alex, which was good, but the first night when the nurse kicked them out and I was left alone, I broke down.

The pain was unbearable, my chest felt like it was caving in. I’ve never experienced pain like that before in my life. I couldn’t breathe. I was so angry at him for making me love him only for him to get exactly what he wanted, then kick me to the curb like I meant nothing to him.

The girls visited me every day. I dare say I’ve even become friends with their guys which is something I never saw coming. Those four guys don’t speak to any females unless it's Vivian or Nova. They may be scary as fuck and kill people but it’s clear, the girls are the ones who you really need to watch out for. Ever since I was discharged from the hospital two weeks ago I’ve been staying at Vivian’s old house in Hollow Hills. The first day here I tried to reach for my laptop only for Ezekiel to throw it across the room. I stood there with my mouth agape.

“Rest. No fucking work. You try to do anything aside from that and I’ll fire you myself and deal with my girl’s tantrum later,” he declared. Vox, Hayze and Archer all stood behind him with their arms crossed, nodding in agreement. I feel bad they are all stuck here because of me. I know they need to be back at CHU and I’ve tried getting them to leave, but none of them will listen to me.

I find it easier to move around each day. I try to keep busy and play board games with everyone to keep my mind off a certain someone, but it’s useless. Alex is under my skin, he’s in my blood, my heart, my fucking mind and everything I do reminds me of him. Nights are the worst, when I lay in bed alone I try to fight off the tears but they fall without consent. I don’t know how many times I’ve prayed for him to turn up and whisk me away, but he never comes. Vox told me he and the others were at the hospital with me while I was in a coma, but they don’t know why they left.

I do.

In Alex’s head he would be blaming himself for what happened to me. No matter what anyone says or does, he’ll always blame himself and that’s on him. He was a fucking coward and turned his back on me, he gave up on us, not me. I thought we would come out on top and be stronger than ever, but I was a fucking fool. Love doesn’t win wars and I lost. That pill is bitter to swallow but I’ve lived through hell and came out stronger on the other side, and I’ll damn sure survive this too. I know I’ll never love anyone the way I love him, but I won’t put my life on hold and wait for a ghost to return.

“Come on.” I look up and frown at the sight of Vox standing at the edge of the sofa.

“Where are we going?” I ask.

“Next door.” My face falls, I’ve done everything I can to avoid looking out the windows on that side of the house so I wouldn’t have to see the home my brother grew up in and where my father lived his life like I didn’t exist.

I shake my head. “No.”

Vox sighs. “Either you come with me willingly or I make Hayze throw your ass over his shoulder and potentially tear your stitches… The choice is yours.” I peer over my shoulder and sure enough, Ezekiel, Hayze and Archer all stand there with firm looks on their faces. I roll my eyes and push to my feet. I look around the foyer as I follow Vox, looking for the girls but they’re nowhere in sight.

“They went to the store,” Archer says, answering my unasked question. I follow Vox across the lawn toward my sperm donor's house. My breathing grows choppy as we come to a stop at the front door. Vox turns to me and holds out a key. I stare at it for a long time, no one making a move or a sound, giving me time to grapple with the emotions warring inside me. I inhale a deep breath and reach for the key. I unlock the door and push it open but don’t move, I can’t.

“This is just a house,” Hayze says softly.

“It was their house, they made a life here without me,” I reply bitterly.

“If you had grown up here, you wouldn’t be standing here right now with us. They would have molded you into the worst version of yourself. You knowhehas your brother and that he won’t survive. You need to see for yourself that he was a monster and let them both go or you will be forever frozen in this moment.” Archer’s words stir something inside me. I square my shoulders and step inside. The house smells stuffy and dusty. I have no idea how long it has sat here untouched and closed up.

“We were going to take you home to Washington, but Nova and Vivi said you needed to come here to face the ghosts of your past. I seem to think they might have been right,” Ez says as I walk around the dining room and take in the sight of the photos that line the walls. Nexus is in most of them. It’s hard to see the little boy in the photos who looks innocent but the man he became is a demon.

“Thomas ruined him,” I mutter as I reach out and trace a photo of him smiling. He must have been only ten or eleven in this image.

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