I cannot fall in love with him!
My stomach chooses that moment to save me from myself. It rumbles so violently that the sound echoes off the cave walls. I’m pretty sure Volan felt that. I don’t know if I should laugh or cry.
“Here I was thinking of feasting on your delicious cunt, and you are thinking about actually eating,” he remarks. He laughs, actually laughs. His whole body bounces on top of mine as he throws his head back and guffaws.
I shove his shoulders, pushing him from me. He’s so much larger than I that I’d have no hope actually moving him if he didn’t want to let me escape. That very thought should make me afraid, yet somehow it doesn’t.
He’s protected me, putting his life at risk to do so, and he hasn’t once done anything to betray me.
I trust him, I realize. Icantrust Volan… Can’t I?
I peek up at him through my eyelashes, watching the way he leans on one arm casually beside the thermal pool. He’s the polar opposite of me; relaxed when I am tense, joyful when I want to scream at the world from frustration and anger.
With a playful pout, Volan eases away from me, fingers purposely stroking across my warm skin. As soon as his touch leaves me, though, I feel bereft and chilled, as if he was anchoring me in place.
“Will you allow me to feed you?” he asks, eyes not meeting mine.
My breath catches in my throat. For once he’s not pushing me, not demanding that I keep up with him. Is he asking what I think he is? For some aliens, feeding a partner is considered an intimate act, one involving courting and mating. Despite what many think, just because a species has intergalactic flight capabilities, doesn’t mean they evolved past some of their base needs. Just like human males taking females out on dinner dates, many cultures consider the presentation of food to be symbolic of the ability to provide and care.
Is Volan propositioning me? Is it because we had sex last night… or is it because he actually likes me? He did agree to help me before the sex. It’s not like he just picked me up in his arms and carried me off like some damsel in distress.
“There is a Sobra farm nearby,” Volan clears his throat when my shocked silence goes on too long. “We can get some food there, unless you have something stored in that skirt of yours. Your stomach rumbles, and mine is feeling rather empty as well.”
“Oh,” disappointment washes through me at his quick change. For a brief moment, I had found myself… hoping. For what? A mating? A marriage? That’s ridiculous! I shake my head. I just got out of a nasty marriage, the last thing I want is to wind up in another one. I don’t even know this guy!
“Maya?”
“Food would be amazing,” I reply, embarrassment flushing through me when I realize that Volan’s staring at me, and I’ve just been pondering the really weird state of my love life. Or lack of it.
This girl needs coffee. All I seem capable of doing is arguing internally with myself.
“Come,” Volan offers me a hand, smiling down at me softly. Of course, his cock is on full display between us, and my eyes snap to it like a magnet. I have no idea how he fit inside me last night, and given the ache between my legs… he nearly didn’t.
I take his hand and allow him to pull me to my feet. Our bodies brush close, and his hand holds mine, not letting go. Tension builds between us as I stare up at him.
“Thanks,” I say, my breath coming out shaken, my pulse racing. Is it because he’s staring at me like he can’t wait to eat me…
No, it’s because I’m excited about this quest. The one to save my colony and my friends. The thing that I should be focusing on.
I’m honestly surprised that I’m actually doing this. Sure, there’s been a few slip-ups and a few unpleasant encounters so far… but look at me! I’m away from Eve’s Rest, actually on an adventure. I’m that quiet girl who never speaks up, and always follows rules and regulations.
It’s a new day. After a night of good rest—though really, can we call it sleep given that Volan woke me up at some point again, and then me him—I’m surprisingly invigorated. I feel like a new woman. I was so afraid I was doing the wrong thing. I mean, I did literally just run off into the wilderness without telling anyone. Really unprepared for it… but I’ve got Volan. Who needs to know how to use fancy blaster guns when you’ve got a literal warrior by your side? I suddenly feel a whole lot more confident. I feel like I can take on the entire world.
“What’s that smile for?” Volan asks, bumping against my shoulder gently as he pulls on his boots.
“We make a good team,” I tell him as I search the ground for my clothing. I scrunch my nose at the sodden fabric. It hasn’t had a chance to dry in the humid air.
I slide my foot into my boot, turning up my lips as my toes press against the wet interior. As I place my foot down upon the floor, it sloshes.
I imagine us off on our adventure, attempting to sneak through tunnels quite dramatically. Only each step will be accompanied by a squelch, giving away our position. It’s something out of a comedy, and right now it matches my heightened mood and desire to just… grin.
“I should be thanking you,” I tell him, a smile tugging at my lips again as I turn to face him.
“I was definitely not well last night. I realize that. Everything happened in such a blur… and I’m really thankful that you took care of me.”
My cheeks heat as I remember just how well he took care of me.
It wars directly with my thumping heart, as it realizes that he’s the only person to ever take care of me. I feel special, and I shouldn’t.