Page 4 of Infected By Virus

It wasn’t just Devin, Heidi had become like a little sister to them too, ever since they rescued her from the trunk of a car and she fell hard for their Prez. Same with Nova for that matter, and her little girl, June.

That one would never get to date before she could collect retirement and maybe not even then. She basically had one scary dad, and a full club of badass uncles wrapped around her finger that would kill to protect her. Just as they’d kill or die for their brothers and the ol’ ladies.

That line of thinking punched him in the gut. His first thought was how it would be the same with his Sun Rae and she’d love the hell out of Heidi, Nova, and June. But especially Devin, they would be thick as thieves, he just knew they would.

She wasn’t his anything—not anymore.

“Fuck,” he shouted and scrubbed his hands down his face. Gwen sauntered up to him, swiping his glass off the table, filling it up and handing it to him. He slammed it back. She immediately went to her knees, hands working his buckle.

As tempting as getting his balls drained sounded, he wasn’t rising to the occasion. He never did on that particular day or even the months surrounding it.

Sure, he’d had sex since Rae, but he had to drink and smoke to quiet her pain that he could still hear. It was never anything more than a physical need … hollow. It was simple as that.

“Get up, sweetheart. I appreciate the offer, but I’m not in the mood.” That was all he had to say, and she backed off. Sherry would’ve kept pushing, but Gwen never did.

Besides, he’d developed a reputation for being selfish in the bedroom, so she was probably relieved. He’d heard the whispers about his performance. Even the guys razzed the fuck out of him over it, but it was what it was. Nothing could change the past. Virus deserved whatever was said about him.

It seemed over the years, he could drink enough to get off, but it was a rare occasion when he could smoke enough to go above and beyond with anyone in bed and put in the effort to get them off. That’s why he stuck to club girls, no expectations beyond the benefits the club offered the regulars.

If he were honest with himself, it was because he felt he owed it to her not to pleasure another woman. It destroyed Rae when she caught him face down in a snatch that didn’t belong to her. Cries of pleasure that came from another woman still haunted him, so no, he just couldn’t bring himself to do it.

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