Page 34 of Our Secret to Keep

River cracks open the door, his body angled away from me. “Get dressed, Nate. Your dick is like a fucking weapon.”

“Really, Riv? That’s what you’re worried about? I might hurt someone with my dick.”

One of the girls giggles.

Another gasps.

Since everyone’s so worried about my cock, I curl my fingers around my shaft. But it’s not for the lurkers on the couch. No, I do it to see how River responds.

Sex is a weapon for me.

It’s power.

I use it against River to keep him close to me. It’s why I send him those filthy videos every day. And it’s why I won’t stop unless he asks me. Let’s face it, he won’t do that. After I send a new video, I lean against the wall separating our rooms and listen to him jack off to me.

I fucking love it.

As I had anticipated, River’s eyes lower to my cock, and he licks his lips. My best friend stares at me—a lot.

Ineedhis attention.

It’s so addicting.

Whenever we’re inside Samantha, and he zones out, I say his name. Bring his focus back to me. And just like that, he’s pounding her pussy like a champ. Lately, he’s been off and doesn’t seem interested in our sex games anymore.

“What are you doing, Nate?” River chokes out, his voice hoarse.

I bet he’s hard for me.

I can’t tell with the hoodie in the way.

“Getting ready for Samantha,” I say, dick in my hand, enjoying his eyes widening at the sight of me. “Are you coming back to bed or what? I’m in the mood to go all night.”

He wants to.

I can see it in his eyes.

It’s a sickness we share.

Why do I do this to him?

The short answer? Because I can.

Thinking back to our younger years, we were both pretty fucked up and looking for someone to love us.

River became my family.

Mine.

“Are you two gonna fuck or what?” Carter asks, still pissed about me offering to fuck his girl. “Jesus, Brooks. You and River got some weird ass shit going on.”

At that, River tenses up.

His shoulders stiffen.

I see him shrink before me, disgusted by the insinuation. He's not scared when it’s just the two of us. If anyone were to discover River likes men, he would be the most talked about person in this country. It could ruin his hockey career and sponsorships.

“Don’t you have a woman to disappoint with your baby dick?” I spit back at Carter, ready to break his neck for upsetting River.

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