Deacon is not in love with me. I don’t think he’d understand the meaning of love if it slapped him in the face.

“You have to start dating, Winter, or I don’t know, start seeing a guy in public so the rumors about you and the boss can die down.”

Wait? What? I haven’t gone out on a date in forever. Actually, I’ve never been on a date.

“What about Alpha Kieran Vega? He’s asked you out countless times, right? Call him today, accept his offer on a date, and dine somewhere in public where people are bound to take pictures of both of you.”

Julie sounds almost as crazy as Luka.

I want to turn down her idea, but my eyes roam to where my sons are, and I make a decision right there and then.

It’s either this date with Kieran or me losing my babies, and I'll always choose my babies every time.

***

The sleeveless spaghetti strap mini-dress hugs my curves and makes me feel prettier than I’ve felt in a long time. The red satin fabric of the dress compliments the blush on my cheeks, completely blending in with my entire look.

Leaving Adrian and Asher on a Sunday night with Isabel feels like I’m betraying our personal bonding time, but my boys seem way more excited about this date than I am.

“Pretty. Mommy,” Adrian claps his tiny hands, the amazed look in his eyes almost bringing tears to my eyes.

“Like a princess,” Ash adds, just as mesmerized as his brother. I can almost see the word “wow” written all over his cute face.

“The dress suits you,” Isabel compliments before she adds sweetly, “Your date won’t know what hit him when he sees you.”

I don’t expect my kids to understand what Isabel means mostly because I don't know how they’ll take the news of seeing their mommy go on a date with a man when she’s never done so before.

And yet, it comes as a shock when Adrian tugs at my dress and asks accusingly, “Are you bringing us a new daddy, Mommy?”

Goddess.

Asher’s eyes meet mine in the reflection, and he gives me a grin.

“I want a new daddy too, Mommy! We asked Daddy in heaven if it was okay to get a new daddy, so please, please, can we have a new daddy?”

I’m saved from the interrogation when the loud beeping of a car comes from outside our house, indicating my ride's here, and Isabel declares, “Mommy’s got to go, and it’s almost past your bedtime, boys.”

The boys begrudgingly kiss me goodnight, having more questions than I can possibly answer. All I can promise them is that I’ll try my best to have fun tonight.

Kieran, who’d said yes to dinner with me tonight, sent a fancy slick Lambo to pick me up from outside my home.

I’m not all concerned about fancy things like cars, but I have to admit, everything about the car blows my mind away.

The driver’s almost to the restaurant when my phone rings in my purse. Alpha Kieran’s number dots on my screen the minute I take my phone out, and I take the call.

“Good evening, sweetheart. Liked your surprise?”

“You mean the fact that you sent a car to my home when I never gave you my address in the first place?”

“I liked you from the moment I saw you, Winter Cavanaugh. Of course, I stalked you and found out your home address.”

My shoulders tense. How much did he stalk me?

“I don’t know whether to be creeped out or flattered by that, Alpha Kieran.” Because really, I don’t.

“Kieran. Call me ‘Kieran’. Come on, you finally said yes to me, sweetheart. The least you could do is drop the formality and call me by my first name.”

The only Alpha I call by his first name is Deacon, and that’s not because he’s my ex-mate but because calling him that reminds me, he’s not some big bad Alpha I have to obey.