Page 13 of The Shadow's Soulmate

David looked at me wide eyed.

“She went to see Cospire.”

Before he could say anything else, I turned and left. Speed walking to Cospire’s office. I bumped into Lyla outside. I couldn’t hold the tears back anymore and broke down as she spotted me.

“Oh honey, what’s wrong?”

Concern flashed across her face.

“I… I think I messed up really badly.”

She placed an arm around me and ushered me along the corridor and to her therapy room, before giving me a tight hug. I squeezed back and sobbed. There were too many feelings.

“Now, what happened?”

Lyla pushed me down into a chair and sat opposite, giving me her full attention. I took a deep breath and tried to make sense of it.

“Descaris, the shadow demon. Well, he was in the shower with me.”

Lyla raised an eyebrow and smirked, but said nothing.

“And then I said I loved him and he ran away.”

“He ran away?”

“Yeah, just disappeared. Gone. It was too much too soon. We barely know each other.”

Lyla took a deep breath.

“Ok, Ella. So, do you love him?”

“Yes!”

It came out of me vehemently.

“Speaking your truth isn’t a bad thing. It might have been a lot for him to hear, but that’s his issue to deal with.”

“I think I scared him off.”

“Perhaps. But if that’s true, then he needs to deal with that.”

I sighed.

“I get the impression he isn’t used to having feelings.”

Lyla twisted her mouth in confusion before she responded.

“What do you mean? He just doesn't have feelings?”

“He’s repressed them. Stuff with his childhood. His father. It made him decide that emotions are bad, and he shut them all down.”

“And you, my friend, are nothing but emotions. You move through the world experiencing everything raw and unfiltered. It’s wonderful.”

Lyla smiled at me, and for a moment, I could almost see myself through her eyes. I could see that she meant it.

“I’m not sure Descaris thinks it’s wonderful.”

“I’m sure it might be a little bit overwhelming at first. But maybe it’s exactly what he needs.”

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