Page 45 of Instinct & New Identity

His touch was so soft, it was torture as he stroked over my rock-hard nipples.Hemade me feel beautiful and treasured.Icould feel goosebumps form all over my body at his touch.

His voice was lower and full of need when he growled, “Ineed to taste you.”

He looked at me as he slowly pulled my jeans off.Mybody tingled with excitement, butItried to focus soIcould inform him how inexperiencedIwas.Becauseif that was a turn-off for him, thenIneeded to stop him now.Ididn’t thinkIcould handle it if he rejected me after we were naked and in the same space together.

“Vince,Ineed...”Iagain tried to tell him as his hand slid my underwear over to the side and his finger brushed a very sensitive spot.Mybreath hitched, and the words paused in my mouth.

“I know what you need, baby.Justrelax.I'mgoing to make you feel so good... with… just," each word was punctuated with a kiss down my abdomen, slipping lower and lower, “my... fingers... and… mouth."

Then, his mouth was directly over my most sensitive bundle of nerves.Myhips lunged off the mattress asIgasped at the sensation.Hedidn’t say anything or detach from me but simply placed his hand on my lower stomach and pushed me back down onto the bed.Hismouth and tongue worked in tandem as desire coursed through my body.Ihad never felt like this before, never felt this amazing.

Oh sure,I’dhad an orgasm before.I’dgiven myself more than a few over the years, but never from a man’s mouth on me.Well, never from a man’s anything, truthfully, andIcould already feel this would be way better than any orgasmIhad ever given myself.Thetelltale signs of my orgasm building were there, but it felt different.Iheard noises leave my mouth, but they were more like incoherent words and mumbles.

“Vince…I…please,”Imurmured unintelligibly.

“That’s it, baby.Comefor me.Letgo,” he commanded, his mouth still on me as he moved his hand up to cover my breast.Histhumb rubbed over my nipple, andIdetonated.

I moaned loudly, and my hips bucked up automatically like a reflex.Hismouth stayed on me as he rode the wave with me.

After it was over,Isat there panting with my eyes closed, just letting the bliss course through me.Hemoved back up to be face to face with me.

“You taste so damn good everywhere.”Hisvoice rumbled low in my vicinity. “You’remy own personalKit-Cat.”

I opened my eyes, and he was staring right at me, smiling.Itwas contagious, soIsmiled back at him.

He leaned down and kissed my nose softly, then my lips, then my neck and shoulders, just soft sweet kisses.Hismouth came over to my ear, kissed it gently, and then he whispered to me, “Iwant to be inside you,Cat.Feelyou clench around my cock whileImake you come again.”

Those words made my brain short-circuit again.

Just the thought of him doing those things to me caused a slight moan to escape my mouth.Ijust came, and alreadyIwas excited to do this again.

He leaned back up, reached over into his pants, and pulled out a wrapper from his wallet.Imay not have had a lot of experience, butIknew what that was.Acondom.Thatsnapped me back into reality, andIrealizedIhadn’t told him yet.Butmy brain was still not firing on all cylinders from my recent orgasm, which could be the only reason whyIblurted it out so awkwardly.

“I’m a virgin!”Isputtered quickly and slightly louder than it needed to be said.Mymouth and eyes closed quickly asIcringed thatIjust threw that out there so bluntly.Ididn’t hear anything, soIchanced opening one eye.

Vince, who had been looking down at the nightstand where he had tossed the wrapper, now turned his head in my direction.Therest of his body was frozen.Hiseyes were straight on mine, though he didn’t say a word.

Now, fully uncomfortable under his stare,Ijust started sharing my thoughts—or oversharing, more likely.

“I…uh…wanted you to knowIdon’t have a lot of umm…experience and…just in case you didn’t want to have to deal with that,Iuh…wanted you to know so that you could decide if you umm...don’t want to anymore,”Ibabbled, but he just kept staring at me.

His face was completely unreadable, at least to me.So, like a totally inexperienced dork,Ikept talking.

“Vince,I’msorry.Ishould have told you earlier.I…”Istarted to say before he moved his body back over the top of mine and put his right thumb on my lips and the rest of his fingers gently on my jaw.

“Cat, stop talking for a sec, please,” he said.Hisvoice seemed strained and terrible thoughts of him trying to figure out how he was going to end this started racing through my mind.Ifelt my eyes begin to well up as the rejection neared in my future.

“First, your sister mentioned a while back that neither of you had much dating experience because ofWITSEC, soIalready assumed you didn’t have much sexual experience either.”

His face dipped closer to mine, his eyes very focused on me. “Second, babe, andIneed you to listen.Youseem to think this is some type of deterrent to me, you not having experience, when that couldn’t be further from the truth.”

“But you stopped and just stared at me.Ijust thought…”Istarted, but he cut me off.

“Kit-Cat, knowing no other man has been inside you before...”Hepaused, briefly closing his eyes, and then spoke again, “Justhearing you say that made me have to fight my dick getting even harder than it was, which at that point was impossible.Istopped becauseIneeded a minute to calm myself down, so this didn’t end the instantIburied myself inside you.”

Oh.Okay, then.

“I figured sinceIhadn’t done this before and didn’t know what to do, it would be more work for you and you might not want that,”Isaid, trying to explain my reasoning to him, but he just smiled at me. “Sexis supposed to be enjoyable,Vince, not a burden because you have to work twice as hard sinceIdon’t know whatI’mdoing.”

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