Page 54 of The Devil's Redemption

Please, just let this happen.

I coach myself because the last thing that I want right now is for my mind to be flooded with the gut-wrenching memories of my time at that clubhouse. His hands roam my body, and the longer his touch is upon me, the hotter the inferno within me blazes.

With a quick pull, he rips my underwear from my body, but I don’t have time to be impressed before his fingers dive through the wet space between my legs. I wince, waiting for the pain to come, but it never does. Whatever pain I felt down there has vanished in the last week, and the gratitude I feel because of it is overwhelming. Blade captures my lips as he presses his fingers deep within me.

“Oh, fuck. Sasha. It’s been too long since I’ve been wrapped in your soft warmth. Ineedto fuck you.”

“I need you, too, Blade. Fuck me. Heal me. Make me forget. Take me, and help me erase the memories that I can’t seem to expel from my soul.”

In the next second, Blade replaces his fingers with his dick. This time when he enters me, it hurts. It hurts more than I remember it hurting, but I keep my reaction in check. The last thing I want is for him to stop because he thinks I’m in pain.

“Ahhh…” I cry out, trying to make it sound like more of a pleasurable moan and less of a painful grunt.

But he knows me too well.

“Fuck,” he stops his motions. “I’m hurting you.”

“It’s okay. I promise,” I cup his cheek with my palm and cross my legs around his back, keeping him from being able to pull out. I don’t know that I’ll be able to let him back in. “Please… Keep going.”

His eyes search mine before he continues thrusting. I beg him, I plead with my eyes for him to fuck me.

“I want this. Ineedthis, Blade. I need you to fuck me.”

He doesn’t answer with his words. Instead, he leans down and kisses me, reaching his hands underneath me and gripping my ass in his palms. Using my body as leverage, he thrusts into me over and over until a scream rips from my chest, and I’m overcome with pleasure. He slows, but only for a second before he resumes his punishing pace. I feel his cock flex inside of me, and I know he’s already close to coming.

“Fuck,” he moans, calming his pace again. “Fuck, Sasha. I love you. I love being inside of you.”

“I love you, too. Don’t hold back, Blade, let me give you what you need.”

He lifts his head, and his eyes find mine. Staring at one another, he picks up the pace again. This time, he doesn’t slow or stop until I’m clenching around him, and he’s coming inside of me with an exuberant gasp.

We lay still, holding one another as we fight to catch our breath. After the waves of my orgasm begin to subside, the memories that I’ve been feverishly trying to keep at bay flood my mind, wrenching a painful sob from my chest.

“Shit… Sasha.”

Blade pulls out of me and curls my body against his.

“Fuck.” He exclaims under his breath.

“He… He…” I feel like a panic attack is coming on. I try to focus on my breathing, but I may as well have duct tape over my mouth.

“I didn’t want to feel anything when he…Fuck… I tried so hard to keep my body from reacting to his touch. It made me sick to my stomach. I threw up as he stole my pleasure.”

I pound my fists on Blade’s bare chest. Crying harder than I ever have before, I try to speak again.

“I didn’t want to feel anything...”

I continue sobbing, unsure if it will ever end.

“I was weak, Blade. I coul—couldn’t stop it fr—from happening…”

I can’t see him through my tears, but I feel his hand on my cheek. I hear his voice in my ear.

“Baby, you didn’t do anything wrong. It’s a normal feeling you experienced through no fault of your own. No matter the situation, you can’t control how your body reacts. Don’t let him win. Not now. Not ever.”

“All I could think about was you. I tried not to. I didn’t wan—want to tarnish the memory of you. If I—I never saw you again, I at least wanted to be able to remember the good times we shared.”

“Sasha, there are so many more good times to be had. Shit, we’ve hardly gotten a moment to experience any good times. The best is yet to come.”

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