Page 368 of Filthy Elites

“Please don’t touch me,” I say before he has a chance to.

He sighs and laces his fingers together behind his head, looking up at the ceiling. “Are you planning to make a report?”

There’s something chilling in the way he asks. He’s not scared shitless the way I have been. He’s not even mildly worried. Just… curious. Figuring out his next moves.

I feel colder now. I try to burrow deeper into the blankets.

I think about asking him to leave my room because despite his calm demeanor, I’m afraid of how this conversation could go very bad.

I shouldn’t have to explain myself, honestly. He fucking raped me.

“Anae said you drugged me,” I state.

“She did.”

“Did you?”

I wait for him to deny it or make some excuse, but he doesn’t. “Yes,” he rumbles. “Twice. The first time I just gave you a crushed up Ambien. The second time I slipped you something stronger.”

Wow.

My stomach aches, but I try to ignore it. “And then you…?”

“Yes.”

I feel a bit sicker, but I ignore that, too. “Okay. Well. Then, I was raped.”

“I didn’t say you weren’t. Just trying to figure out where we stand.”

“Have you done this to other girls?”

“No,” he says easily. “I didn’t even know I was into it until I tried it with you.”

“When? The first night I spent at your place?”

“Yes. And the night we had dinner with your mom.”

“Why didn’t you want me to be awake?” I ask quietly.

“I don’t know,” he answers. “I touched you a little bit while you were sleeping before we had sex, and then I wanted to take it further. The second time, you had technically said I could do anything I wanted to you that night.”

“I didn’t know I was saying it to a psychopath,” I say flatly.

He doesn’t have much to say to that.

After a moment, I say, “Since apparently I have to be very fucking specific, in the future, please do not ever drug me without my knowledge again.”

“Okay. I won’t.”

I’m quiet for a moment, and so is he. Finally, I ask a question I’m not even sure I want the answer to. “Did you think about killing me last night? I get that it was a trap you laid for Anae, I believe you, but in the moment, while it was actually happening, did you think about it? Even for a fleeting moment.”

“No.”

I look over at him. “You swear?”

“I would never hurt you, Aubrey.”

“Youhavehurt me, Dare.”

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