Page 121 of Give Me Redemption

I did the same thing.

But worse.

Today’s court day. I have to go in and confront the pain I’ve caused this family. I only wanted to be a part of it. I only wanted to be in another life so I could love Jace freely.

I wanted him to know who I am and still be proud to take me around his family.

Now I get nothing.

It’s over for me.

It’s done.

My glimpse of heaven has passed, and after today, I can get back to my normal life.

Being alone and focusing on finding my sister.

Which is great.

I roll my eyes. “Just fucking great.”

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I sit anxiously in the courtroom. I’ve always been cool at these things. Confident that I did my job and took down the bad guy, but part of me thinks that maybe I’m pointing fingers at the wrong bad guy.

Maybe I should be pointing at myself.

I mean, what Bryce was doing was illegal, but it just doesn’t seem to matter after you look at the bigger picture.

Hearts were broken; pain was caused. Sometimes a turned cheek is the only way.

Fuck, my thoughts are so messed up.

Iamthe law.

He was breaking it.

I did what I was supposed to do.

I look up when Monroe hits my arm. “You bitch,” Kat says slowly.

I blanch. “Kat.” I look around, wondering if Jace is here, too.

“How could you?” My attention turns back to Kat and my eyes dart down to her white knuckles caused by the firm grip she has on the bench. “How fucking could you?” It’s clear she wants to hit me.

I don’t blame her.Not really.

Of course, I’m not going to let her, though. I like the girl, I really do, and I get she’s taking up for her guy, but that’ll be crossing the line.

I hold up my chin. “It’s my job,” I say, and that’s really the only reason why I did it.

Because, trust me, if at any moment I could have changed things, I would have.

And then I feel it. Thick tension pointed right at me.

He’sin here.

I know it. I want to look away from Kat. I want everyone is this courtroom to disappear and let me talk to him alone.

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