Page 66 of Sin With Me

My body stilled. The thought of his fingers elsewhere on my skin, even if only massaging, was tingling me everywhere. I turned around with caution, letting his fingers slowly draw around my neckline, over my shoulder, and to the front. He gently skimmed his thumbs along my collarbone. I looked up and felt the sparks between us ignite a flame that had been patiently waiting to be lit. His entire front was pressed against me, his weight forcing my behind against the kitchen counter.

“You’re a beautiful woman, Kate. Any man would be lucky to haveyou.”

I wasn’t breathing, and I sure as hell wasn’t thinking because my rising chest pushing into his, my lightly open mouth, trembling thighs, heated breaths, and hard nipples – my entire body, in fact – were doing all the thinking forme.

“Why are you saying that to me? You know I don’t want just any man.” My voice was only a whisper, but given that my words flowed directly into his lips, which were about two inches away from mine, he probably heardme.

“Who do you want, then?” he asked ever so naively, slowly tracing his fingers up my neck to my jaw line, his thumbs skimming over my cheeks back and forth.

“You.”

His hot breath did that magical dance along my skin again, right over my lips, sending shivering excitement through my body. Had I just told Father Cameron that I wantedhim?

“We’re playing a dangerous game here, Kate. And I’m not going to sacrifice your beliefs for one night full of mind-blowingsex.”

Why did he have to say it that way? The sin he spoke of sounded even more appetizing when it came from his mouth. At his lengthened words I felt another drip stain my panties, and I pushed my thighs closer together.

“You see, Kate, I can’t be having all these thoughts about you, every hour of every day. I’ve been sinning in my mind since the day I met you. I’ve dreamt of you spreading your legs for me, tasting all your flavors, imagining just how hard I’d have to pinch your pink nipples to hear you moan. Every. Single. Second of my day is filled with you.” He was staring again, and I couldn’t look away. I couldn’t pretend I didn’t hear his need. With his lips tickling against mine, hovering there patiently, the inevitable was going to happen. We both knewit.

What did he just say about my nipples?

“What the heck. I’m going to burn in hell for this anyway.” As the vibrations of his words left my lips, he took my whole face between his hands. Raw need tensed the corners of his jaw and he stole my mouth withhis.

Please forgive me,I thought.

The kiss flew through me like a shock wave, pleasant at first, intensifying with each prod of his tongue. He nipped my bottom lip with his teeth, hungry for more, and I opened wider for him, yielding into his arms, which were as confused as I was, sliding over my body in search of a comfortable spot. He finally tilted my head to that perfect angle, allowing us to completely connect. I breathed him deep into my lungs. His essence swirled inside me, and that was the moment I realized that I couldn’t live without him. If this was our only kiss, then I wanted to die. Living out the rest of my life without him, and knowing what his lips felt like on mine, would have been torturous.

I held onto his arms, gripping them so that he wouldn’t let go. I wouldn’t let him go. I dragged my fingers upward, feeling his strong biceps and wide shoulders. I was holding on for mylife.

And just as suddenly, he pulled away. His breaths were heavy as he held me at arm’s length.

“Kate, I’m sorry. I shouldn’thave.”

“Yes, you should.” I stepped up on my toes, a little closer to him, and looked up. That hunger and need was still there. I had a feeling that it would be there forever.

He smacked his lips to mine again. But that second-long look in his eyes just before he kissed me put me in panic mode. It was a look that reminded me of someone who was saying goodbye. I’d seen it in the past in my father’s eyes before he left on a job and never came back. It ruined my mother, and I wouldn’t lose another person I cared about so deeply. This time, it was me who pulledaway.

“Don’t tell me this is a once in a lifetimekiss.”

His breaths were heavy, my words somewhat waking him up from the spell we’d both fallen under.

“I’ve already crossed a line I shouldn’t have,” he replied.

“What if I want you to cross thatline?”

“It’s not your decision tomake.”

“Whose is it, then? God’s? Because He certainly put you in my path. I’m not sure why just yet, but I know that Hedid.”

I watched Father Cameron struggle to understand me. I watched him fight an internal demon he wanted to overcome. And then, I watched him compose himself.

“Kate, your faith is strong. I can’t ruin that. I can’t be the reason you doubt what you believe in. I’m sorry that I kissed you. I’m sorry that I touched you. It won’t ever happen again.”

He took another step back, and I took one forward.

“You’re going to confess and forget about what we shared, aren’t you?” I asked.

“Yes. So shouldyou.”

I felt my shoulders droop. It was better this way. It was better he didn’t know that I wanted to tell him that his confession would be one big lie because I knew what I felt in my heart. And I knew what our time together meant to him aswell.

“Kate, if it were a different place and a different time… maybe. But Ican’t.”

“Then lie to me. Tell me that you’re not a priest. Please lie to me because I can’t lie to myself any longer. I can’t pretend that I don’t have these feelings for you. I don’t understand how they just happened, but they did.” I looked in his eyes. Our gazes connected and held in that special way. Energy sizzled between us, nearly igniting. I felt my lungs tighten as my voice lowered some more. “I’m begging you, lie to me and sin with me until the morning.”

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