Page 179 of Sin With Me

“Aha, so thereis.”

Why the fuck did I forget that she was a PI every time I spoke? I breathed out, trying to take Emma’s advice of honesty and no secrets.

“It’s more than likely that my ex-girlfriend will be there.”

“Claire?” she asked.

I felt my brow lift on its own. I didn’t even want to know how she knew about Claire already.

“Missy told me,” she explained, without me prompting.

“Yeah, Claire. She had a tough time letting go when we brokeup.”

“Why did you break up?” She asked.

“It’s a long story. She wanted kids and a family, and I wasn’t ready to give that to her. I wasn’t ready for the commitment she sought.”

“Is that something you fear, Eric? A family?”

Emma’s question didn’t shock me or scare me the way it would have if it had come from someone else’s mouth. It wasn’t something I’d given much thought to before, simply because I didn’t feel the need to, or because I’d never found anyone whom I’d consider as a good mother. But now, imagining a bunch of blond-haired toddlers running around the front yard put a smile on myface.

“No, I definitely want a family. A bigone.”

She bit her lip, obviously pleased with my answer. I reached down between her legs, trying to feel whether she was still as ready for me as she had been before, but Emma pushed my hand away asking.

“Were there other girls beside Claire?”

I wanted to seem like the kind of a guy who was so much more, but I couldn’t lie any longer. With my failed past, I’d always stayed away from anyone whom I thought I could fail, including the herds of town girls that had advanced my way. Claire had been one of the few I’d taken, and I was sure it wouldn’t have happened if she hadn’t been handing me beer after beer at a dance.

“Does it make me sound like a douche if I tell you notmany?”

“It makes you sound like the gentleman I know you are, Eric.”

“C’m here,” I said, sliding my hands down to her hips, wanting to taste her sweetness on my fingers, feeling my need for her revive. I didn’t want Emma jealous of anyone else. I needed her to know that she was the one who was important to me. I wanted her comfortable and without doubts because there was no other woman in my life more important than shewas.

She grasped my hand again, pushing it away. “Am I good enough to go to the barn now?” she asked unexpectedly.

“Is that how it’s gonna be, baby? You’ll only put out for me in thebarn?”

“I want you to pop my cherry in the barn, Eric.”

Had I not explained the meaning of it to her yet? Taking her there meant commitment. It meant protecting her for the rest of my life, her being mine and only mine from now on; it meant having no secrets, none. Wasn’t that what I’d wanted anyway? I wanted to give her an honest life before taking her there.

I rolled over on top of her and took her mouth into mine, forcing my tongue through her lips, claiming them as my own, swallowing the moan that left her breath.

“I will, Emma, but not yet. Not until we’re ready.”

And I pressed myself to her again, her body finally yielding to my need as I promised myself to give her everything she’d ever wanted, including my barn. But most of all I needed to give her what she didn’t know I still could, and that was my full honesty.

As I lowered Emma’s red panties and finally dipped inside her, all my reason left and I gave into the lust I’d had for this woman since the day I sawher.

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