Page 11 of Dirty Pucking Tease

Releasing her lip, she rolled her eyes as she blew out a sigh. "Men don't find me attractive," she whispered. A laugh bubbled up, but I caught it, shoving it back down when I realized she meant it.

"You can't be serious.”

"Jax, you've told me enough how unattractive I am," she said, and my chest tightened, thinking back to all the mean things I'd said over the years. I hadn't meant any of them; in fact, I'd said them to convince myself that I didn't think she was fucking gorgeous, but it never worked.

Realization sank in; I'd done this.

"Even this morning, you told me to keep all this a secret, and last night you said you weren't going to fuck me." She raised her shoulders. "I'm not sexually attractive, I guess."

I gaped at her. I didn't know what to say. Not only had I kept guys away from her growing up, but I'd also made her feel like she wasn't beautiful. I'd never meant for any of this to go that far, and now there was no backing out.

I was all in.

I didn't know how to fix this yet, but I'd figure it out.

"Kaia." I sighed. "I didn't ask you to keep this a secret because I'm embarrassed. I asked to keep it between us so it doesn't get back to my mom or your dad."

"Oh..." Her mouth formed into the shape of an o.

"And I told you I wasn't going to fuck you because you're a virgin, not because I didn't want to."

"So, you did want to?" She narrowed her pretty blue eyes on me. Fuck. I didn't want to answer that question because once it was out there, I could never take it back.

"Hey," Syn called out, and I blew out a breath when Kaia's gaze flicked up to see her and Harlow pushing through the kitchen door. "What are you two doing?" Syn and Harlow's gaze simultaneously flicked down to see Kaia's legs lying over my lap.

Fuck. I panicked. "We were," I jumped up, shoving her legs off me, "going to watch a movie."

"Fuck, yeah," Syn shouted. "We should rent that new horror movie. You know, the one where she's possessed that just came out."

"Sounds good," I said, thankful they wanted to hang out with us. I didn't trust myself to be alone with Kaia at the moment. My gaze flicked down to her, still sitting on the couch. "You in?" Kaia didn't watch horror movies. I didn't think she hated them; she was just easily scared. "Come on." I laughed, reaching for her hand and pulling her up. "I'll protect you."

"I'll grab the snacks and meet you in the theatre room." Harlow smiled.

A built-in home theatre was on the first floor, toward the back of the house. Syn claimed the two large recliners for her and Harlow, leaving the reclining loveseat for Kaia and me. The room used to have six large recliners until Trystan and his friends had a party and ruined them with cigarette and weed burns and bodily fluid stains. The love seat was behind the last two recliners but slightly elevated on the slanted floor.

"Trystan's band got their first big gig," Syn said, settling into her seat while I set up the movie.

"When?" Kaia asked, settling into the loveseat. I already knew when and where because Trystan texted me earlier today.

"Next Saturday," Syn answered, twisting around her chair to see Kaia behind her. "We are all going." She didn't say it like aninvitation; she said it like a demand, letting us know we were all going. "Oh, it's that one." Syn pointed to the TV, twisting back into her seat when the movie appeared on the massive screen.

Harlow pushed through the door with a handful of drinks and snacks. Dropping everything on the table between Syn and her recliner, she settled into her chair.

"Did you want anything, Kai?" Harlow asked.

"No."

The movie's opening credits blared through the surround sound speakers, and I flipped off the lights before settling in next to Kaia on the loveseat.

"You're cold," I whispered when I noticed she was trying to use my sweatshirt to cover her entire body. The theatre was the coldest room in the house. "Syn, toss me that blanket." Syn yanked the blanket off the back of her chair and tossed it. I threw the oversized throw blanket over Kaia before settling back into my seat to watch the movie.

I couldn't remember the last time we'd all watched a movie together. We were all so busy now that none of our lives coincided anymore, or maybe I avoided being in such close proximity to Kaia because I was scared I wouldn't be able to control myself.

Within the first fifteen minutes, Kaia was curled into my side with her eyes squeezed shut. I closed my eyes as heat rushed over me, heading straight to my dick. A blood-curdling scream blared through the speakers, and Kaia thrust herself hard against me as her fingers curled into the thin material of my t-shirt. My dick swelled, straining against my shorts.

My mind flashed back to our conversation earlier. She didn't think she was attractive. She didn't think she turned men on. She didn't know what she did to me. Shoving an arm under her head, I pulled the blanket to cover both of us. Tonight, she would know.

"You keep rubbing up against me like this," I whispered against the shell of her ear. "I'm going to show you how much you turn me on." She sucked in a ragged breath. "Do you want to feel what you do to me?"

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