Page 35 of Catching Feelings

“I take your silence as you trying to come up with a polite way to turn me down.”

“What?” I twist in my seat to face him. “Sorry. I zoned out for a bit. I love hiking but haven’t had time to go in forever.”

“Perfect. Is nine too early to pick you up? If you’d rather sleep in, we can go later in the afternoon.”

“Nineissleeping in. I’ll be ready.”

Miles parks in front of my apartment building and unlatches his seatbelt.

“No need to get out and get honked at for double-parking.” I hop out of his truck and lean my head inside. “Thanks for the ride and letting me tag along on your hike. I’ll pack snacks.”

I wave him goodbye and hurry into my apartment building. A few minutes later, as I’m soaking under the shower spray, I think about Adam for the first time all day.

He’s been my semi-dirty little secret. One I’ve been fantasizing about nightly for the past few weeks. Today is the longest I’ve gone not thinking about him.

Miles has somehow infiltrated my fantasies as I skim my hand down my torso and touch myself. After a few minutes, with my mind oscillating between a faceless Adam, who knows my dirty secrets, and Miles, who appeals to my sunshiney side, I’m no closer to orgasm than I am during the workday.

My mind is too distracted. I’m not one of those girls who can come just by thinking of someone, or on command. Although, that’s one of my fantasies as well.

Unrealistic fiction is what it is.

Sighing in unsatisfied dismay, I finish soaping my body, rinse, and get out of the shower.

When I’m bundled in my fuzzy robe, I open the Friends to Lovers app and message Adam.

Elizabeth77: Do you watch porn?

I drop my phone in the pocket of my robe and head to the kitchen to make my lunch for tomorrow. As soon as I’m done cleaning up my mess, my phone vibrates.

Adam86: Not regularly. Do you?

Elizabeth77: I never thought about it until tonight.

Adam86: What happened tonight that made you think about it?

Elizabeth77: I was out with friends and found myself enamored watching my best friend’s husband rub his hard cock into her stomach.

He doesn’t respond for a few minutes, and I worry I scared him off when a message pops up.

Adam86: Is enamored code for turned on?

Elizabeth77: I think so.

Adam86: Think?

Elizabeth77: I’m not turned on by him or by her. But I wished I had a partner who wants me so bad he can’t contain himself in public. It was hot watching him bolt out of the bar so he could take her home. I’m sure they got busy in the car before they even left the parking lot.

Adam86: Did you want to go out and watch them?

Elizabeth77: No. I didn’t even think about that. It’s more a longing to be wanted in that manner.

Adam86: I’m sure you’re a beautiful woman who has many men wishing they could be with you.

Elizabeth77: Ha! You have no idea what I look like. But that is sweet of you to say.

Adam86: From what you’ve told me, everyone calls you the cute girl next door. That’s a turn on, Wildflower. I can tell by our conversations these past few weeks that you’re an amazing woman.

Elizabeth77: Thanks.

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