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I wish I were enough for him. Sadly, I’ll never be able to give him what he needs.

And I’ll wear that guilt like a scratchy shawl for as long as I live.

Becausethat’swhatIdeserve.

Chapter11

Everybody was kung-fu fighting

Big Al

Tonight was a clusterfuck from the word go.

Scratch that. It was multiple other words. Two sentences. All of them spoken by her son.

I can’t tonight, Boss. Mom has a date, and I need to keep an eye on her.

Thankfully, it was just a phone call and not an in-person conversation. My eyes bulged out of my face like an irate cartoon character, and the veins at my temples throbbed.

Because... what the fuck?

Seriously. What. The. Actual. Fucking. Hell?

It took everything in me not to scream at him or throw the phone across the room.

Or both.

All these years, and I’m still waiting for her. Like she asked me to.

Impatiently at times, but waiting, nonetheless.

After she lost Sammy, she was understandably in a horrible place emotionally. Who wouldn’t be? Then, she moved down to Florida with Leo. For once, I agreed with her about it not being the best time to start a relationship.

For two years since then, I’ve been waiting. And waiting.

And waiting some more.

Apparently, it was all in vain.

Never in a million years did I expect her to go on a date with someone else. Not when I’m right fucking here. How could she do this to me?

And to herself?

Not to sound cocky, but Iknowshe still wants me. Her body language is as clear now as it was then. Every time she sees me, it’s there. The yearning. Longing. Desire.

Same as mine.

She’s practically my mirror when it comes to how much she craves our connection.

Yet I’m sitting in her driveway in my SUV with a dickhead’s dried blood flakes on my knuckles.

Yes, I followed her home. Go fuck yourself if you don’t like it.

I told myself it was to ensure that her piece-of-shitdatedidn’t follow her home.

And it was. Partially.

But an equal part of me wants to confront her. I didn’t do it when I had the chance back in the parking lot at Mystic Fish. She was upset. It didn’t feel like the right time, so I focused on calming her down.

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