Page 94 of Sweet Harmony

She wanted tohave sex with him. She knew that now. She just needed to tellhim.

Butterfliesdanced in her stomach. Should she tell him? What if he said no?What if he thought it was a ridiculous idea? He was attracted toher, that was obvious, but what if he wasn’t interested in banginga virgin? Maybe he secretly liked women with experience and shecould barely kiss when she first met him.

Stop. Youwon’t know for sure unless you ask. If he rejects you, so what?It’s worth the risk. Take a deep breath and tell him.

She took a deepbreath and told him. “I want to have sex with you, Connor.”

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Connor staredwide-eyed at Kira, certain he’d misheard her. “What?”

“I want to havesex with you,” she repeated.

“Kira, you werevery clear that you’re saving yourself for… someone else.”

Did he reallythink that if he didn’t say Daniel’s name, it would bother himless?

“I’ve changedmy mind,” Kira said. “I think it’s a better idea to have as muchexperience as I can get. That means actual sex.”

“You want tosleep with me for the experience,” he said.

“Yes. I mean…no?” She studied him in the dim light. “Connor? Why are youupset?”

“I’m not.”

“You’re lying,”she said. “I can tell.”

“You said itwas special to you,” he said.

“I’ve changedmy mind.”

“Just likethat,” he said.

“Yes.” Shewaited a beat and then said, “If you don’t want to have sex withme, just say so.”

“Obviously, Iwant to have sex with you,” he said.

“Great. Let’shave sex.” She smiled at him and kissed his chest before lickingthe hollow of his throat. “I’m sure there’s lots you can teach me,right?”

He pulled back.“Kira, don’t.”

She stared athim in confusion. “Don’t what? You just said you want to have sex.So, let’s have sex.”

“It’s morecomplicated than that.”

“No, it isn’t.”She traced her fingers over his back. “Is it because of all thatstuff I said about my virginity being special? Because I was wrongand just being silly. It isn’t special. It’s just a thing that Ineed to get rid of, that’s all. It doesn’t matter who I give it to,or -”

“It doesmatter!” His voice was too loud. “It matters and it is special, andI want to be your first, Kira. I want that a lot. But not if you’reonly giving it to me because you’re trying to get it over with,okay? I want to be your first because…”

“Because why?”she whispered.

His heartthudding in his chest, feeling vulnerable and naked in a way he’dnever felt before, he said, “Because I like you. You’re sweet andkind and even after being dealt some shitty cards in life, you’restill so damn positive and upbeat. I’ve never met anyone like youbefore and when I’m with you, I...

He blew hisbreath out in a harsh rush. “You can say whatever you want, but Iknow your virginity is special to you. That makes it special to me.I know what it means to you and I hate that you think it’s okay tojust give it to me because you want more experience.”

He stared atthe wall over her head. “We have a lot of chemistry and connectionand I understand the desire to go further. But, if we do this now,if we have sex just so you can get it over with and gain someexperience, you will regret giving it to me.”

He swallowedhard. “I want to be your first, very much. But I would rather haveyou give your virginity to Daniel, than give it to me and regret itlater.”

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