"Give me your number," he says, and I hand over my phone.
He enters the number, and I look at his hands.
Since when did I become interested in guys' hands?
Probably since I saw Tim's hands...
"See you," he stands up and winks at me.
"See you," I nod and turn to face the curious looks that are directed at me.
"I don't know," I blurt out before the girls can say anything.
And then three…two…one
And a scream. Yara, Adele, and Lily all merged in unison and started screaming like crazy.
"It's Timur," Lily smiles.
"And he asked you out," Yara adds.
"Do you know each other?" I am surprised. I've never seen girls hang out with him.
"Not really, but he seems to be a close friend of Danylo's," Adele says and takes a drink of her juice.
Something inside of me shrinks.
What if he did it on purpose? To, I don't know, hurt me?
But no. It can't be. Why would Danylo stoop to the level of a thirdgrader?
I begin to leave the state of euphoria and return to reality.
I'm going on a date. To sleep with a guy. A guy I'll never see again.
And who do I look like now? Yes, I really lack sex in my life, or rather, I don't have any at all, but that's no reason to sleep with the first guy who comes along. Even if he's hotter than the lava flowing out of a volcano.
A year ago, I tried to do something similar. I was an emotional wreck and on the verge of depression. I wanted to have some fun and went to a club. I was alone. I don't know what I was thinking at the time, but a few shots and then kissing a stranger in the toilet was not the way out. The kisses went further and when his hand touched me there, I threw up. I mean, I really threw up. I threw up my entire lunch right on his shirt, and after that I try to avoid clubs.
On the one hand, I don't want to sleep with someone as much as I want to make sure that I'm still... normal. That I won't throw up on some guy when he tries to make me orgasm.
Almost three years have passed since Denys' death. During these three years, I was not with anyone. I haven't gone on a date, I haven't even kissed anyone. I know that I will always love only him, but I feel as if something inside me is broken.
Like I'm broken...
"Since when do you date?" Lily asks with a smile and moves closer.
Her blond hair is pulled back in a low ponytail today, and her green jacket emphasises her bright green eyes.
I can see why guys like her.
"This isn't a date, we're just going to hang out."
"And you're going to let him put his rod in your hole?"
"What?" I raise my eyebrows.
"You..."