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"Because you're hot. And I didn't know Bondar had feelings for you. Until I saw the way he looked at you."

"But now it's Zlata standing next to him, not me."

"Like I said, he's going to regret that decision."

Why is every one of Danylo's decisions so strange?

Stay as far away from me as possible, Amelia. No, work with me. Come to my wedding, Amelia.

I'll never know what's going on in his head.

And I will never know what is in his look, which is still fixed on me.

Chapter 26

The scariest day of the year. My biggest fear. My horror. Tonight, I did not close my eyes for a second, so now I’m standing in the cemetery with flowers in my hands, crying bitterly.

"Forgive me for everything," I sit down by the grave, "I promised that I would not cry, but I miss you so much, Denys."

I look up and wipe away the tears. This year is colder than last year, so I wrap my arms around myself in the hope of warming up a little.

My family knows that I always spend this most horrible day at the cemetery. Sebastian brought me from Kyiv, and now he and our mother are waiting for me at home. I know that when I come back, they won't try to comfort me or support me. Mom will prepare dinner, and Sebastian will set the table. We will sit in silence and talk about various topics, pretending that it’s an ordinary autumn day. Then I'll lock myself in my room and cry into my pillow for a long time, and the day after tomorrow I'll be back at university again, as if it hadn't been the worst two days of my life.

"The internship is going great," I smile, "by the way, Danylo got married last week, he even invited me and Sebastian to the wedding. You won't believe it," I laugh again, "I caught the bride's bouquet, Sebastian said that it was the first step to my new life, and I just pretended that nothing happened."

And although Danylo was smiling all evening, he looked completely broken. We didn't manage to talk about anything, because we were constantly distracted, but I hope everything is okay with him. I know that now he has a lot of responsibility, but his father who also came to the wedding, gave him a flat in the city centre. Although he has a huge house outside the city, so they have not yet decided where they will live. And Zlata's parents promised to help them with everything.

"Everything is as usual with me, but I feel a little better, I am constantly warmed by the hope that someday we will be together again, so this helps me to hold on. My patients love me, and I like treating them, neurosurgery turned out to be interesting, so I'm even thinking about changing my speciality, but it's still too early to talk about it. I know that you look at me and smile with your bright smile, without your support I would be completely discouraged. Yesterday I finished reading a new novel, I know how you always liked to hear them from me, so now I will tell you the whole plot. Brace yourself, this romance broke my heart."

And I begin to tell him the story, sometimes laughing, then crying at the right moments.

And then I hold in my hands the ring that Denys gave me.

"It hurts me to do this, my love, but this is the first step to my new life," I take it from my hand and put it on the grave.

I will never forget him. I will never stop loving him. I will never erase the memories of him from my head.

But I have to live on.

"How are you?"

I receive an SMS from Danylo on my phone. I told him where I was going to disappear for a few days, and since then he has been texting me almost every hour and asking how I am.

Me: Nothing has changed in the last forty minutes.

Danylo: I'm sorry.

Me: Tell me something good.

Danylo: Zlata went to see her friends, and I'm sitting at home and watching a Turkish series.

Danylo: In Turkish. I don't like watching translated movies.

I'm laughing. Now I understand where he has this urge to constantly use foreign words.

Me: Just don't say that you also know Turkish.

Danylo: I'm working on it. Series three and my brain is already boiling, wanna join me darley?

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