Page 5 of Heal Me

No more.

That day changed everything and forever. Changed me. Broke. Destroyed. Took away any will to live and strength to fight. I didn’t just lose a part of myself, I lost the whole universe. I don't want to cry, because even tears are tired of flowing from my eyes.

I take the phone from my hands and start flipping through the gallery in search of a book I once saved to read.

My breathing slows down. I deleted all the photos, as my psychologist advised me. But I forgot about this photo. I am eighteen, we are standing with Denys, and he hugs my waist, I show a finger on which a huge diamond is visible. He proposed to me and I felt what happiness is.

2018

We celebrated my eighteenth birthday, and if someone had told me a few years ago that I would have the perfect boyfriend, lots of friends, and an accepted application to the university where we would soon all be going to study together, I would have burst into tears of laughter.

Although then I also cried, but from happiness.

"You are the best sister in the world, and I know that I am far from a perfect brother, and that you miss your father as often as I do, but I always tried to replace him for you."

Well, that's the end of makeup. I cried like crazy. And although I almost never allow myself to show emotions, it was still my birthday then.

Denys hugged me, and stupid Sebastian couldn’t finish his surprisingly amazing speech.

"You always knew me better than anyone else in the whole world, even more than I know myself, when I was hurt, I felt it inside, and when you were hurt, you are everything to me, I love you from your first day and forever." Sebastian put the microphone aside and approached me.

"I love you," I said.

"So," Denys took the microphone in his hands and went on stage, all eyes were focused on him.

And of course, it was impossible to tear them off, he was one hundred and eighty-six centimetres tall and weighed eighty kilograms. And add to all of this he was training in the gym and the charming smile that was always on his face.

"I don't remember the day we met, but I’ve never regretted it. You are my light, my universe, and I hope it will remain so forever. You're not like everyone else, I realised that when in seventh grade, after I didn't take you with my friends for a bike ride, I saw that my tires were flat, and then I realised it again when your fist flew into my face. I fell in love with you on the first day, and then I fell in love when you beat up Sophia for looking at me. And then I fell in love again when I saw you protecting a little cat from dogs on the street. I have fallen in love with you again and again every day, and plan to do so for the rest of my life. "

Again everything in the world froze, again only we remained, only me and Denys, who is now standing in front of me on one knee.

"If you say yes to me, then I will be the happiest man in the world. "

"Aren't you the happiest now?"

"Ami," sighed Sebastian and twenty other people who were present there.

"Yes," I finally said. "Yes, yes, and I will continue to say this until the end of our days."

Denys got up and put a ring on my finger, it was just a huge diamond. We dissolved in one kiss, we became one, we couldn't get enough of each other, and it seems we never would.

Everyone raised their glasses of champagne, I smiled at my mother, who was already wiping her face from tears and taking pictures of us, and Svyat, who was trying to calm my mother down.

I’m glad that they met each other, and although it hurts me terribly to realise that my father should have been in his place, but Svyat is also a part of our family. He loves and protects my mother, and I can't ask for more.

The same year, 2018

We packed things in boxes and couldn't wait until we moved to Kyiv, where our flat with Denys was already waiting for us, given to us by his parents.

I adore them.

"How much more? " Denys sighed tiredly. The weather was terribly hot today.

I turned and looked at the closet, which was completely filled with my things.

"A lot," I smiled and put my hands on my hips, starting to count the boxes.

"I'm tired." It was Sebastian.

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