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His hand wraps around my waist, and my frightened face is directed at Danylo's gaze. I freeze for a second. It has been quite a while since I felt a man's hand on my naked body. In the place where Danylo's fingers gently caress my skin, I back off.

"Are you finally getting out of here?" I shout, taking his shirt lying on the washing machine and throw it right in his face.

And then I push his body out and close the door. I lean my back against the door and slowly go down. I bring my knees to me and bury my face in them.

Trying to calm my heart, which started to beat wildly, a few more beats and my watch will start ringing, I decide to take it off my hand.

I don't think about what I felt a few seconds ago when his breath filled my lungs. Not thinking at all about how his strong fingers held me.

I go into the bath, this time because of hot water, the body takes a long time to get used to it.

I don't think at all that Danylo is somewhere very close. I don't think that his body is too sexy without a shirt, I don't think that I managed to see a small scar on his lip, almost invisible to anyone.

I don't think that I think too much about Danylo.

Chapter 9

2019

Iopen the door to our flat. I knew that only one of us would move to Kyiv and live here, but I definitely didn't think that it would be me.

I twist the ring on my finger that Denys gave me. I couldn't take it off. I couldn't get rid of it, like all of Denys's other things.

I walk into the spacious kitchen. We should cook dinner together here. I would stand by the stove in Denys's T-shirt, and he would come up behind me and hug me by the waist. He would cover every part of my body with his kisses. He would make me feel what it's like to live in paradise.

These thoughts make my heart ache terribly. I'm starting to feel sick, but I hold myself in my hands, so I don't cry. I scan the flat with my red eyes, and my gaze falls on the small sofa in the middle.

There is almost no furniture here, because we wanted to choose everything together before arriving. I go to the couch and sit down. I wrap my arms around my waist and close my eyes.

My dreams. My future. My life. Everything is destroyed. Absolutely everything. This pain will never go away, it will haunt me for the rest of my life. Every morning when I open my eyes and every night when I go to sleep.

I take my phone out of my pocket. I go into messages and start texting him.

"I came to our flat. I like it, I really do. But I won't live here without you."

A year passed, and I never stopped texting him. Three hundred and sixty-five days have passed, and I still haven't been able to let go of this pain. It becomes difficult for me to breathe, my chest burns terribly. I no longer have the strength to stay in this flat. It was supposed to become our dream home, but it became my worst nightmare.

Chapter 10

Our days

Iget out of the bathroom, rub coconut-scented lotion into my skin, dry and brush my long brown hair, put on clean new underwear and clothes. I look at myself in the mirror, my green eyes have darkened slightly from the hot steam in the bathroom, and the freckles are almost invisible on my face. Usually, they are only visible in summer, although there are not many of them anyway. I used to dislike them and to cry about them all the time.

"What's the matter, Ami?" Denys came up behind me and hugged me by the waist.

"I hate my freckles," I sighed and picked up the foundation.

Denys pressed his lips to my bare shoulders.

"I like your freckles."

First he kissed one shoulder, then the other, and then he turned me back to him.

"You are perfect. From the beginning to the end."

And Denys began to kiss every freckle on my face. Every inch of my skin. He liked me the way I was.

I emerge from the memories. I actually like myself, I have a pretty face, a small nose, plump lips, thin brown eyebrows, long eyelashes and sharp cheekbones. I achieved this with the help of facial massage, which I do every morning and evening.

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