Page 31 of Blindly Yours

I’m taking that as a no?

ASingleRose26

They’re fine. They want the best for me

BigSpoon92

As any parent should

ASingleRose26

yeah

BigSpoon92

but?

ASingleRose26

their best is…a lofty goal

BigSpoon92

is your definition of “best” different than theirs?

ASingleRose26

I think so

BigSpoon92

you aren’t sure?

ASingleRose26

I’ve spent so long trying to reach their standard, I’m not sure what mine is anymore

BigSpoon92

what do you want?

ASingleRose26

in what? A partner? A career?

BigSpoon92

in everything

I gulp and stare at the wall again. I have no idea what I want. I’m not sure I’ve ever fully realized this before. I thought I wanted to climb the ranks at AWP and marry the man who’ll make my parents proud. The one who’ll sit with my father in his parlor drinking his favorite Blanton’s Gold and talking stocks while my mother and I shop boutiques and plan family trips to Greece and Tuscany.

That’s all I’ve imagined for myself.

Ever.

So, I don’t know what to say, but he responds before I have to.

BigSpoon92

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