Page 50 of Sumanika

I rolled into the comforters and hid myself. The vision of him closer to me was clearer than reality. My future was also clearer than reality. I couldn’t stay away from him and control myself around him.

The emotions I had always considered dead and buried were awakening, reminding me that a woman resides within me who needs to be cherished by a man.

The Man. He was the Man. A Man.

For the last four years, I had never felt this way about him. But then, why did it change suddenly?

My head spun with his thoughts, and the one that prompted me to push my comforters off my face was the thought of completing that kiss.

What would happen if he kissed me? What was I even thinking?

No, he shouldn’t come near me. That was wrong. Society would never accept this.

But he drew closer. I felt my back press against his chest, his lips near my ear. My breathing grew heavy. His finger brushed my arm, sending shivers of anticipation through me. His chest felt warm against my almost bare back.

I felt him leaning into my neck. My lashes closed tightly, and a slight wetness formed in my core. It was wrong, but it felt good. The touch didn’t burn me. The voice didn’t bite me. And the softness made me feel cared for.

I pressed my thighs together. We were on the bed, and he smiled at my struggle. Placing his hand on my thighs, he parted them, shaking his head.‘Only me,’

His words made me feel even hotter, and I turned to face him and sat in his lap. I felt his hardness against me, and it thrilled me.‘Kunwar Agastya,’I murmured, kissing his cheek, and in that instant, I opened my eyes.

I quickly glanced around and straightened up.

What in the world was I dreaming about? And why?

I shook my head in disbelief. How could I dream about him? I quickly covered my face, struggling to breathe.

Suman, you’ve become a problem. He isn’t the problem. You are the problem. You’re getting turned on. And after seven years? For him?

Suddenly, I felt the bright sunlight on my face and immediately looked toward the window. It was well past morning.

Ugh, no! Let me handle one thing at a time.

A grand feast awaited in the Kingdom, and I was sleeping in late.

I immediately threw away the comforter and walked toward the common bathing room for attendees. At this time, it was empty. Typically, we attendees would remove our clothes and wrap ourselves in cotton fabric to take a bath together. However, some attendees were very confident about their bodies, so they went naked, like older women.

I wrapped the fabric around my body and stepped into the pool, which was now filled with dirty water since everyone had bathed. However, I let it go, and after emerging from the pool, I used a bucket of clean water to change into my plain clothes.

But today, I chose to be real. I removed my leftover bangles, nose rings, and toe rings. In our tribe, wearing vermilion was optional, but the toe and nose rings were the main ornaments for married women.

I needed to accept this, and additionally, Kunwarsa needed to accept it as well.

Taking a deep breath, I walked toward Nandani’s chamber. Upon entering, I found her sitting with her Daadisa.

“Pranam, Daadisa,” I wished, bending down to receive her blessings. She placed her hand on my head and held my wrist, encouraging me to sit beside her.“How are you, Suman?” she asked in her weak, old voice, and I smiled, rubbing her hand. "I am good, Daadisa,"

“You called me Bhabhisa,” his voice suddenly captured my attention and sent butterflies fluttering in my stomach.

“Ji, Devarsa, come here,” Nandani invited, and I heard his footsteps approaching. I glanced at him as he settled on the other side of the bed with Nandani.

“I was thinking of taking you with me for a while. You’ll feel better,” Daadisa said, catching my attention as I heard Nandani ask him,“What happened to you last night? Why were you acting so childish?”

I gulped nervously, feeling my palms sweat.

“You will come with me, right, Suman? You’re our child now. I want you to get married and settle down in a loving family. I have someone in mind,” Daadisa said with a smile, and my smile faded from my face.

Did she really have to say all of this in front of him?

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