No.No.
I was stronger than this. I sliced through Esmaris’s face, groping for reality. I pushed myself to my feet only to feel the air knocked from my lungs again. But this time, at least, I was ready— I threw my arms up in front of me, like I did on the bridge in Tairn, and shielded myself. My whole body shook from the impact, but I remained standing.
In my mind, I sliced the remaining threads of Nura’s illusions, unraveling them like a tattered tapestry.
Sweat rolled down the back of my neck. It took everything I had to shield myself both externally and internally, but I was doing it — somehow. I pushed forward towards the second orb. Reached out. Placed my fingertips against its cool surface.
I was just about to lift it from its stand when I felt something shift. I looked up to see a dim, gentle glow seep through the darkness.
And as the shadows danced away like a floating curtain, they revealed Zeryth Aldris.
Chapter Thirty
Zeryth crossed his arms over a broad chest. “Hello, Tisaanah.”
My fingers froze, struck with confusion — but it melted away with the heady warmth of his smile. The sight of it took me back to the evenings we had spent together in my little room at the Mikov estate. Some of my fondest memories there.
But, memories aside, it was borderline impossible not to be stunned by Zeryth’s smile. Somehow, I had managed to forget the sheer impact of him. He was the kind of handsome that seemed almost offensive, the kind that leeched out into the air around him in a magnetic cloud. He wore a close-fitting white jacket, similar to Nura’s, and with his white clothing and white skin and shoulder-length white hair, he stood out so starkly against the slithering shadows that I found myself squinting to look at him.
“Zeryth,” I said, in a tone that couldn’t decide whether it was pleased or confused or annoyed. I glanced back down at the orb, which sat between my fingertips. Were we done? I hadn’t completed my task.
“Tisaanah,” he said, “come here.”
I removed my hands. Watched my fingers slide away from the metal. And I stepped forward, past the pedestal, towards Zeryth.
His gaze swept over me, starting at my feet and traveling slowly up until he reached my eyes. “You look different than the last time I saw you,” he said. His teeth glittered. “Tell me, how long has it been?”
“A year and half, I think,” I replied, and his grin broadened.
“Your Aran is much better, too. What a treat, to communicate so clearly with you now.” He slid his hands into his pockets. “Tell me, do you like it here? In Ara?”
“I do.”
“You’ve enjoyed training?”
“I have.”
“Your instructor must be very pleased to hear that.” He nodded up towards the balcony. “Turn around and wave to him.”
I turned. Lifted my hand. Snapped my eyes up to the balcony. They settled on Max, and the look of hardened fury on his face snagged my slippery thoughts on something sharp.
Wait.
This was strange.
I looked at my raised hand. Curled my fingers.
There was something I was supposed to do. Something important. I was here for a reason. And somehow I’d just forgotten —
My thoughts solidified as I looked to my right, at the orb that still sat on its pedestal. I began to turn around, to walk back to it.
“Stop,” Zeryth said.
My feet stopped moving.
“Look at me.”
I turned back to Zeryth. He tilted his head. “Why do you want to leave?”