Page 124 of The Things That Hold Us

I pause, because she’s right, I know she’s right. But I’m not about to admit that.

“I dont know.” I answer honestly, “I just know that I want this. I want to make this work, and have a fresh start.”

Cassie walks around the store, and stops at the old counter, leaning her elbows on it.

“You should just move here.” she laughs.

My eyebrows shoot up. I know she said it jokingly, but that thought actually doesnt sound horrible.

I look out the windows at the town. There's people walking everywhere, taking in the nice weather before the rain hits. There's that ice cream cart parked in front of the gazebo. There's red and orange leaves starting to fall and paint the street.

It's like something out of a movie.

I look back at Cassie, and she's watching me intently.

“I should just move here.” I whisper. The realization that I might actually want to do that hitting me like a truck.

“What if I moved here? Is that completely crazy?” I add.

Cassie looks shocked, but she smiles. “It is crazy.” she says, then adds, “But it wouldn't be you if it wasn't.”

I smile at her, nervously biting my lip,“You dont think it's a bad idea?”

“Honestly?” she asks, standing and walking over to me. “It might be exactly what you need. A complete fresh start.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah. Sam follows you everywhere at home. And I know moving wouldn't stop that, but maybe being somewhere completely fresh would help you.'' She smiles lightly.

“I’m going to look into it.” I say, then I add, “There's even a field full of marigolds just down the road.” I tell her, and my heart swells when I remember Logan showing it to me.

Showing it to me, because of Sam. Because he thought I would love it.

“Marigolds?” Garrett asks, and I jump because I almost forgot he was here.

“Yes. There's a whole field full of them.”

His eyebrows pinch together, “That’s Logans.” he says, and I swear I feel my heart stop.

“What?” I say, my voice coming out as a whisper-yell.

“Yeah. He told me about it when we all went out after a meeting.” he pauses, then adds, “He bought it. Something about it having special value or something, and possibly being destroyed.”

I feel my eyes start to water, and it feels like the floor might give out on me.

He bought it.

It’s his land.

He bought a field of marigolds, to save them.

Why would he do that?

I look at the door, and see the truck with my deliveries pulling in, and anxiety starts to claw at me. I don't want to be here right now. I want to be with Logan. I need to see him. I need to talk to him and figure this all out because..why would he do that? And why would he not tell me?

“I need to see him.” I blurt. “I need to tell him..” I trail off, unsure what I would say to him.

“You need to tell him that you love him.” Cassie finishes my sentence for me.

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